#drawingundercovington

[stagefrightundercovington]

Fa.na.rt aftermath of my omorashi and hur.t/comf.ort fic Soothing the Stings of Burning Blades and Strings. Under a cut because I’m not that brave yet.

Or, that just woke up from a nap pee urgency hits different with a UTI!

This is more detail than I usually add, but things got rough and I needed a distraction. Maybe the outcome can be a triumphant return. But as for how it relates to my story, I see this as later in the day after what happened. Once T3nna got back from his errand to get some things to help Sp4mton feel better, they both had a day in together. They were already tired out from everything. Sp4mton is already feeling better from being rehydrated and having some medicine in him, but he still constantly has to pee. Not just because of the infection making him feel like he has to. He’s drinking a lot to help flush the infection out and because it burns less to pee when it’s diluted out, his smaller than average bladder can’t stretch out to hold as much when it’s all thick and inflamed, and it’s getting filled up faster.

Naturally, drifting off for an unplanned nap led to him waking up desperate. He got fuller than he could have awake, and then woke up to a bladder spasm. Sp4mton knows the jolt from landing would make him leak or worse if he tried to jump down during a spasm, so he either has to try to wait it out, or ask T3nna for help down. He’s still shy about asking, so he chose to fight and hold on. But T3nna noticed him struggling and asked if he needed to pee, and he was too desperate to deny it on the spot and asked for help down then. Lucky thing, T3nna is feeling okay and only has heating pads on his shoulders preventatively because he’s learning to be less stubborn in recovery and to take care of himself before the consequences of not doing so set in, so it’s no trouble for him to help Sp4mton down, or even carry him to the bathroom so he doesn’t stress himself into locking up by running there.

At the risk of doing too much cha.rl.ie br.own wah-wah, I went all out with the background for stress relief. I tried to imagine how T3nna would do his bedroom in c4s.tle t0wn, and decided to make it reminiscent of his game show set and the gr33n room. The color of his duvet being like the curtains, the wall color, and the headboard of the bed being made of solid boards like a stage floor. His arm support pillow, too, and hanging a string of night lights up between the bed posts. T3nna has a bunch of pillows to support his arms however he needs, and Sp4mton has a lot of pillows because I think he’d be used to being surrounded by a lot of things when he sleeps, so a wide open bed around him might be unsettling. And since T3nna has a pillow reminiscent of his set, I gave Sp4mton a sky pillow. They deserve nice things and that just felt right in the moment. A lot of it was impromptu feel good things.

I’m not sure how I like my messy bedding and wrinkled material technique with this new art style I’m trying out, but I’m going to take it for what it is here, and let time decide if I change it up next time.

[stagefrightundercovington]

Omorashi fa.na.rt of d3l.t4.ru.ne verse M3ttat0n and future developing fa.nf.ic spo.ilers under the cut.

Or a drawing that tested every bit of my patience, and was an excuse to draw M3ttat0n with double crossed legs before anything else because crossed leg fidgeting in omo makes me feral, double crossed legs are even better, and who would be better to do them with than MTT?

The outline for the future story is pretty well developed, but probably won’t come together for a long time with the way my Relief In Recovery series is flowing. For those who don’t know it, M3ttat0n gets his body in the l1ght w0rld in my AU, but it’s much more mechanical than how he would be in the d4rk w0rld. There’s not as much plot to it and it’s way far along in the timeline. It’s a maintenance day story. M3ttat0n is doing T3nna’s l1ght w0rld maintenance, and has gotten to the step where he has to lay T3nna on his side to reach a few places to check and clean wires there. This step makes T3nna dizzy in the d4rk w0rld and can stress him out if he’s already glooby, so M3ttat0n tries to get through it quickly and only takes breaks to comfort T3nna if he’s getting upset.

But there’s just one problem. It’s mid summer and the air conditioning isn’t working, so M3ttat0n has been running through his coolant fast. And he’s consumed more than he usually does in an entire day in just a few hours to keep from overheating. He was too focused to realize he had to pee until tilting T3nna over sloshed his tank, and then his urgency sensors and internal high capacity alarms started going off. M3ttat0n doesn’t want to leave T3nna alone when he’s on a step that can be stressful, so he’s trying to hold it until he finishes. Even though it’s rapidly getting worse and he can’t remember the last time he’s ever had to pee so bad in this body. Despite not getting the countdown alarm yet, he feels like his tank is going to emergency release at any second, but while trying certain positions that make the urge just a little less distracting, M3ttat0n may be having an awakening of his own. And is it just him, or are the feelings he picks up across dimensions from the d4rk w0rld from T3nna less anxious than usual?

Trying to do the star pattern on the walls was an ambitious decision, and one I wish I hadn’t made last night, but it was a learning experience. It was also one of those drawings where my colored pencils were more grainy than usual even with my tricks to reduce it, which was annoying to no end. But that’s physical media art sometimes. Even though the grainy appearance still made M3ttat0ns face details less visible than I wanted, I do think I improved from my first attempt, so there is that, and I’m going with it. Gotta normalize gradual improvement to get anywhere, and some imperfections if we’re going to win the generated slop war, right?

[stagefrightundercovington]

Omorashi fa.na.rt based on my d3.lt.4r.uin.ed Relief In Recovery AU

The Paruretic and the Polydipsiac. aka bathroom problem moral support frenemies, stuck waiting in a bathroom line somewhere in c4stle t0wn under the cut

If the last picture I did tried my patience, this picture was reborn out of a fiasco that tried all my motivation. But my journey posting omo content online began with these opposite sides of the same coin in a recovery arc, so of course I had to draw them together. And I know he’s not as popular and he’s a pain in the butt, but I love J3vil and he deserves love, too.

Anywhere these two are, lines are bad news. They make it harder for Sp4mton with his shy bladder because he knows he’s holding the line up when he can’t get started peeing. He also has more time while waiting to worry about what might happen if he can’t go, so he’s even more nervous. J3vil has a lot of anxiety in recovery that gives him compulsive thirst. He’s still unstable enough to get too distracted to go before he’s desperate, and it sneaks up fast on him with all the fluids he drinks. And the anticipation of getting near a bathroom makes the urges stronger, so standing outside in line can be his undoing.

This doesn’t really correspond to any particular scene in my existing stories or any upcoming ones I have outlined, though it’s implied in my first AU story as something that happens a lot. J3vil is trying not to lose control before he gets to the toilet, and Sp4mton is trying not to let his nerves spiral when he already tried going earlier and couldn’t relax. In their c4stle t0wn AU recovery arcs, they still have petty arguments and are too stubborn to admit they’ve become friends, but both know how hard it is to deal with bladder problems, and they look out for each other around bathrooms away from home. Both try to distract each other whenever they’re in a line, J3vil will offer to guard the door for Sp4mton if he’s struggling to let go, and if Sp4mton has a failed attempt and needs to try again, it helps J3vil remember to go before he’s at a crisis point. Sp4mton isn’t as self conscious about needing to try again so soon when J3vil is also making frequent trips, so it works out. They’ll take digs and jokes at each other over many other things, but mean spirited rivalry stuff is off limits with close calls and accidents.

They’re not too far gone in this drawing. J3vil isn’t using both hands yet, but having to hold himself does mean he might leak a little while he’s getting undressed yes, he takes his gloves off but doing that in line would make his anticipation urges worse. Sp4mton isn’t glitching out yet, but the way he’s clasping his hands at his chest is something I headcanon as one of his tells of desperation. Drawing this became an unplanned characterization study. J3vil is blatant with his need, he doesn’t care what anyone thinks, and he’s not ashamed to openly hold himself if that’s what he has to do. Sp4mton is a lot more subtle until his glitches take over, he’s shy about how he’s perceived, and he will do anything to resist holding himself and even show that he’s not. But anyone who knows him well knows that if he has his hands like this, it’s only a matter of time before he’s clutching down lower.

About the fiasco note. I sketched this on the same day I sketched my M3ttat0n drawing weeks ago, but seasonal humidity makes some pencil colors lay down with a gummy consistency and others more dry and brittle. Color blending was a bear especially on J3vil’s face, and I fought it so hard the paper surface started disintegrating. And then it was impossible to blend colors at all. And it was probably okay, but I just wasn’t happy with it being all patchy and smudged when I knew I could make it look better. So after a break, I started over entirely and redid the whole drawing from scratch over the last couple of days. And while I did like the details on Sp4mton’s face just a tiny bit better on the original, I’m really glad I did and feel like I had major improvements overall on the second try. I share that because it did feel weirdly symbolic for a drawing of two characters in a redemption AU to have a redemption of its own. But even when the picture is entirely colored, it’s always okay and never too late to start over and try again. Which is an experience I share without shame for anyone else who tends to be their own worst critic and also needs that reminder from time to time.

[stagefrightundercovington]

First time posting art and first time drawing any of the Relief In Recovery fan.fic.verse character lineup from d3lt4ru.ne. Practice page edition. Something had to use up the rest of the paper I drew my profile pic on. This is not going in any fandom tags because it’s practice and I have improvements to make, but I’m going to be positive about my first try and share even if it’s not perfect because art is messy and there’s no wrong or right way to do it. I’m also experimenting with a new art style and this page is the first time I’ve done that too.

Divided up for better quality

Full page for context blurry because of tumblr and my ceiling light

Personal reflection and positive affirmations under the cut, and still using numbers in names because of the relation to my N$FW stories.

I’m my own worst critic, but I’m challenging myself to look at what I did well and address what I can work on while rambling about the process as I do. Or try to be as kind to myself about my art as I would intend to be when commenting on someone else’s. Because self-degradation doesn’t improve anything!

Everything I drew I first did on the left in pencil, just to get a feel for how I wanted to do it and practice some expressions for some characters, and practice the major parts of their bodies at least once, and then I chose one with modifications to do full body in color. On the sketch side, the body versions of T3nna and S3am were my first attempts and I was happy with them. Sp4mton, I kept adding on to decide how descript I wanted his eyes, and played with getting some emotion into his jaw. The layered additions are messy, but that’s what that side of the page is for. I was really happy with my J3vil sketch, but I broke my rule and went back and changed his eyes once because the way I had his lighter pupils before looked overly creepy. M3ttat0n was fun to sketch but already needed some changes to his body.

S3am was the first I colored, and I was really happy with how they came out after I decided the best blend of colors for their fur. J3vil was a pain managing black on black details and not getting his face too dark to see his eyes. I could improve some things, but I’m okay with that for attempt number one. I’m also happy with the line art details showing well on him even with my ceiling light washing everything out. I used to cheat in my old style and do my line art in a fine tip marker when I went for that look, but I want to challenge myself to use only colored pencils now. I did cheat putting him in mittens to not have to do his fingers, but that works with a headcanon I have for him and I’ve seen others put him in mittens before. The biggest improvement I need to make is deciding how to place his tail so that it makes sense instead of copping out and deciding it’s hidden under his cape.

T3nna was a happy accident. I made a mistake on his line art. A purple colored pencil tip broke and slid so he got a line on his screen that wouldn’t erase all the way. So I made his blush lines that color purple instead of black with a red haze like I planned. And I liked it! I should have been more strategic with the color layering on his pants to place the shine in a way that made more sense, but it did at least make them look shiny. His hands are a weakness, but not anything to get hung up on when hands are a weakness I’ve been working on anyway. Sp4mton worried me in the line art stage, but I got some good feelings once the colors came in. The highlight was figuring out how I want to give him a resting face apart from a true smile without changing his mouth too much. His mouth is smile shaped, but the corners are more relaxed and the hinge lines don’t go straight up to the red dots like they do in the blank glasses sketch where I made him smile big. There’s room for improvement but I’m not unhappy.

M3ttat0n was where I really missed my old line art hack. Getting his hair a saturated black and not a heathered pencil look without losing all the flap detail almost turned impossible. I think it worked out in the end, but I lost some of the pink highlights I tried to put in. His face details were also hard to make show up, and it didn’t help that I drew him small to fit him up in the last bit of space I had. At least that’s a problem I won’t have outside of a practice page. I have the most work to do with him, but I do think I’m at least on track to get him how I want him. And again, this is a practice sheet and meant to be for working out bugs, so I’m trying to show myself the grace I’d show someone else if I were looking here and didn’t know how it was actually supposed to be. His body came out well, and with more room to stretch his legs longer I think I’ve got something.

My profile pic I drew back in January is on here, and the alternate I didn’t use, but might for a separate side blog someday. The purple gh0st in the hat and scarf that tie together into a cape hood for hiding fit me and my blog theme better. And then I played with it on the sketch side with writing stories and theories for fun. The sh4dow gu.y in the cape was also sort of a play on my blog name to suggest being under cover. Sh4dow gu.ys already are stealthy looking, but the cape hides what ears they have. I drew them playing in the rain too because it’s what I felt like doing. Also it was a play on my joke of ch.arl.ie bro.wn.ing and the wah-wah teacher sound effect talk that was done with trombones and might be what a sh4dow gu.y sounds like talking.