Shifting Journal: 2/24
I WAS SO CLOSE Y’ALL
Like I had been feeling weird all day yesterday (apparently all of shiftblr was feeling off) and I was like “whatever I’m just gonna fall asleep while visualizing and hope to shift.
AND THEN Ihad this dream: it was my wedding day. I was with my family and R and full dress on etc. But the photographer didn’t show up. I was DISTRAUGHT I was PANICKING, I think I started crying. And I was standing next to my mom and I was like “please just wake me up. This has to be a dream. This can’t be real. This must be a dream.”
And I stopped. Looked down at my hand (my reality check) AND MY FINGERS WERE ALL SWIRLY. IT WAS A DREAM.
From then it turned Lucid. Immediately like a fucking superhero I froze time, stopping all the chaos of the wedding. And then I decided to fly off and jump around outside (cause why not?).
I landed on top of a roof building and was like “okay. It’s time to make a portal for my DR. I’m going to shift.” And I closed my eyes and imagined a door/portal in front of me. But then I couldn’t open my eyes. I could feel mysef “losing” control of the dream and I was slowly waking up. I desperately tried to gain control again, but it was too late. I opened my eyes and was back in my CR bed.
I could practically taste my DR like it was RIGHT there. I was so so so close. But this wasn’t a failure! It was a success!! I successfully lucid dreamed for the first time in like YEARS. It’ll happen again soon enough and then I’ll be ready.