#dreamsequalmyreality

[unconventionalquirkybibliophile]

Im fighting myself and telling myself it has nothing to do with you and its not ur fault i lose people. Im trying hard to tell myself that but often times they leave due to me being ur friend. I honestly dont care but it hurts to lose others still. So im terribly sorry for ignoring you lately. Im not dealing well right now. Plus theres things i feel i just cant tell you or things you just wouldnt care to know. So im shutting down not just with you but everyone else too. My dad is the only person im talking to at 100% and thats why i needed him back.

[unconventionalquirkybibliophile]

I'm pretty sure that if either of them hated me they would've told me that already. i thought i was done getting anon hate about her. its been like almost 2 years anons get over it. she doesn't hate me. as for the other person i'm sure they don't hate me either. you're also making outrageous assumptions about things anon. just stop and leave me alone, you aren't managing to actually upset me. all you're doing is making it so i think you are ridiculous. neither of those kids hate me. i'm sure my friends don't hate me. 

[unconventionalquirkybibliophile]

Im so glad to have her around. Especially when things get this bad. I broke down today and all i needed was not just a hug but for someone to hold me. And when she hugs me it feels safe and like things will be okay. Lik it cant always be bad. She means a lot to me. I dont let a lot of people near me when im upset which is why i needed her today cuz i wasnt talking to people. I wasny saying that i was upset too. But she always knows cuz she knows everything cuz i tell her everything. I felt very cared for and protected and thats nice. Box just know ur a great kid and amazing. You mean so much to me

[unconventionalquirkybibliophile]

EArlier i sent a snapchat saying gay fish everything i aspire to be wit a rainbow fish scarf to my mom. She messaged being like um im confused why do u have a gay flag with fish. I had to explain its a scarf that im using as a flag. That was funny. Tho box thanks so much for showing it to me when u found out. Cuz gay fish is just me. N i dnt think u realize u not just made my day with that but a lot of my semester cuz now i wake up n sleep to gay fish which reminds me of who i am and makes me okay with my gender

[unconventionalquirkybibliophile]

kendra tagged me

Rules: In a text post, list ten books that have stayed with you in some way. Don’t take but a few minutes, and don’t think too hard — they don’t have to be the “right” or “great” works, just the ones that have touched you. Tag [ten] friends, including me, so I’ll see your list. Make sure you let your friends know you’ve tagged them.

1. annie on my mind

2. soul screamers series

3. blue is for nightmares series

4. the vampire's assistant series

5. get me out of here

6. orange is the new black 

7. my sister's keeper

8. the catcher in the rye

9. (cant remember titles for 2 more) 

I tag the people in tags

[unconventionalquirkybibliophile]

SO I cut my bangs terribly because i was dysphoric nd upset because someone told me if i want to use male pronouns i better present that way so i cut my bangs short and they look so bad but honestly i can't see myself as anything but hella cute hanks to that loser. 

[unconventionalquirkybibliophile]

omg i just called the turtle a snail. combining turbo and a turtle's tale. almost said snail tale

[unconventionalquirkybibliophile]

me: "are you ready to watch a turtle's tale?"  steph: "yeah"

me: 3...2...

steph: "I thought you meant like mentally prepared"