Over the last week I’ve just been hearing a lot of static in my conversations with Jesus. Too much noise, and not been able to find the right frequency that He’s on. Trying to step out into the deep but there’s no one guiding me - lost in the darkness… So what else can a missionary do but offer it up in prayer, right?
So went for reco at the Cathedral this morning and at the Emmanuel Community’s Pentecost rally tonight, I asked for prayer to be able to better tune in. My prayer team prayed that I might have the courage to still search for Him and seek His voice in my life. And then Jesus reminded me that I can ask for help from his army of angels and saints and one of my prayer team closes prayer by asking if I have a particular saint I’m devoted to and because I’m finally on the home stretch with reading her autobiography (plus she is awesome), I say coyly “…St Therese of Lisieux?” And he says, “Wow, I was just about to say.. I feel like you should really journey with St Therese!“ What even is ‘coincidence’ these days.
Which then reminded me of the Archie’s Living Biblically talk on Wednesday - that we are all on a journey and that we won’t know light unless we have experienced darkness, joy unless we have experienced suffering and hope unless we have experienced hopelessness. Jesus, grant me the grace to desire and overcome darkness and suffering and hopelessness - and the humility to allow it to transform me.
Little Flower, I ask you to intercede for me and accompany me on this road I am on. Pray that I might have open ears and an open heart to surrender myself to whatever His plan is for me - and to do so joyfully and with love.