#dsmp eeau

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Whenever I go through @painted-illusions-au or any of the AUs of that AU i feel like I’m just vigorously shaking hands with @rozugold we both love putting c!Tommy in Situations fr fr

I’ll draw their happier healing arcs later together too ksfklksankfl but for now have two Tired Traumatized Boys 

[Image ID: A digital pencil drawing with minimal shading of two exile arc Tommys sitting side by side, facing away from each other. The Tommy on the left (mine from my extended exile AU) has shaggy hair that’s scorched on the ends and is wearing a frayed trench coat and heavily patched pants. The Tommy on the right (Rozu’s from PI/DI) had overgrown hair and eyes painted on his arms, and is wearing a frayed tank top and pants with bandages wrapped around his forearms. Both look very tired and sad]

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Muse was kind and granted me the inspiration to complete the drawing of two Less Tired Healing Boys, I’m love,,,,, them

[Image ID: A digital pencil drawing of two c!Tommys. The Tommy on the left (from my EEAU) is dressed in a cardigan with a kerchief tied around his neck, the top of his hair pulled back and the lower half brushing his shoulders and with two small braids in it. He’s holding a chicken. The Tommy on the right (from @rozugold​‘s PI AU) is dressed in a long sleeve dual toned sweater, with a scarf around his neck. EEAU!Tommy is happily talking and PI!Tommy is looking excitedly at the chicken. Both look a bit worn but happy.]

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COULD YOU TELL ME ABOUT YOUR EEAU?!!! I AM SO VERY CURIOUS!!!

I ABSOLUTELY CAN AHHHHHHH I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS ABOUT IT ALWAYS. Premise is that after Dream blows up Logsteadshire, instead of leaving Tommy alone, he suggests to Tommy that they start over somewhere new. He leads Tommy to an even more remote location that this time no one knows about (not that Tommy’s aware of it) and after asking Tommy if it would be less painful if no one was allowed to visit him rather than having them constantly reject him by not showing up, and Tommy agreeing, he like. Bans people from visiting Tommy. This is not, however, what he tells the rest of the SMP - he actually doesn’t say anything for a bit because he’s busy destroying other teenagers lives (Doomsday also holy fuck i am so normal about eeau!tubbo or honestly just c!tubbo in general) but then after Doomsday of course Tubbo goes and discovers the annihilated Logsteadshire and like runs back and Dream insinuates that Tommy killed himself which definietly doesn’t devestate or at least shake up many people. But then people start talking and realize that like. Dream’s been manipulating and lying to them all this whole time and pitting them against each other. Philza in particular is like ‘why did we leave Tommy with the man who constantly expressed his dislike for him/set out to ruin his life’ and everyone was like . fair point. Queue manhunt for Dream where Dream loses his two lives and all of his allies and in a cruel twist of fate ends up with only Tommy for company!! Because stockholm syndrome babey :)))))) Plans backfired immensely for this man. (I did not forget about Punz well I did but then I figured out a way for him not to be there which is a WHOLE OTHER STORY basically Dream tried to manipulate purpled who went Nuh Uh and tattled to punz so punz fucked off and spat in dreams face on the way out)

QUEUE A YEAR LATER Ghostbur stumbles across Tommy in his secret exile spot (Henburgh) as Ghostbur has been searchign for Tommy’s ghost ever since he learned that he died. Eventually Ghostbur forgot he wsa looking for Tommy’s ghost and was just fixated on that he was looking for Tommy. Tommy however is scared of what Dream might do to Ghostbur/to him if he sees Ghostbur or finds out he was here, since he’s technically not allowed any visitors, so he sends Ghostbur away on an impossible quest. Ghostbur leaves him a small bit of blue that he then hides bc he can’t bring himself to throw it away, but unforunately nothing escapes Dream’s grasp for long and he notices :))))) It does not end well for Tommy, time for Logsteadshire pt 2. DURING THE TWO MONTHS THAT PASSED SINCE GHOSTBURS VISIT Wilbur is revived by Philza and Technoblade bc hella guilt and also Kristin hinted to Phil that Wilbur could come back and so Phil took the opprotunity. Wilbur however! Does not remember his time as ghostbur aside from very vague feelings and a couple blurry memories! But he feels VERY STRONGLY that there’s something important to the southeast of Techno’s cabin, and eventually that feeling grows so strong that he starts getting really anxious and upset about the fact he can’t go, so Techno offers to check it out fully expecting to find nothing. Only to stumble across Dream being HORRIFIC to Tommy during Logsteadshire Pt 2 and prompty going Oh Fuck No and bringing Tommy back to recover at the cabin.

Tommy does NOT appreciate this, and immediately demands to be taken back to Henburgh. Techno does not oblige. Tommy makes his displeasure clear but also mans now Traumatized as all hell so he also does jack shit to actually oppose the rest of the SBI. QUEUE FAMILY BONDING TIME AND SLOW HEALING. IT TAKES A LOT OF TIME AND EFFORT AND THERES OF COURSE MORE SHIT BUT I DONT KNWO IF I WANNA SPOIL IT CAUSE I AM WRITING THE FIC. But the main fic ends with Tommy having not fully completed his healing but having made progress in mending his relationships w his family and friends, specifically SBI and beeduo, and like starting to realize and come to terms that what he went through was wrong but it wasn’t his fault, and decide that he wants to fight to be better again. I’m definitely so normal about all of his healing arcs and the way he slowly starts to recover from his trauma and find himself again and discover that life is worth living and that love doesn’t have to hurt I’m really fucking normal. I could talk about this for hours I in fact have talked about it for hours with my sibling (shoutout to them for listening) there are so many details to all of this i thikn about it constantly I am packing so much symbolism into this baby it will be my magnum opus if i can ever fucking finish it

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🌀❄️🌧️🌪️? :0

🌀 Post a summary for a fic you haven’t written/published yet.

One of my other dsmp aus I still think about from time to time is a different exile AU i made where Dream conditions Tommy to be mute - at one point he sews his lips together and yeah :) Tommy’s exile lasts around 3 months but before Dream blows up Logsteadshire Tommy manages to stage his own death and runs away to live with Sam, following up on the offer Sam made to Tommy at the beginning of his exile. He learns to use sign language and slowly relaxes and as time goes on he heals and starts to speak again. He stays with Sam through all of this - for a good few months no one even knows he’s still alive. SBI’s characterizations are closer to canon in this so they’re kinda shitty about Tommy being mute and Tommy’s like Fuck Off but he does mend his friendship a bit with tubbo and ranboo although it’s not quite what it once was

(This au was partially inspired by someone on tiktok and i don’t remember them now aaaaaaah but they had a really cool series of Tommy getting his lips sewn shut it was so good!! they were so talented i’m so mad i can’t remember them)

❄️ Share a snippit from a WIP of your choosing

Have some EEAU Tommy and Ghostbur interaction :>

Ghostbur spent most of his time following Tommy around, trying fruitlessly to interact with objects and help Tommy (although Tommy silently thanked Prime for his intangibility - he was pretty sure Ghostbur would have just made a complete mess) and chattering away. Tommy expected Ghostbur to get tired of him, or for him to be tired of Ghostbur, but Ghostbur was delighted with every moment he got to spend with Tommy it seemed, and Tommy found he didn’t mind Ghostbur’s endless talk. 

🌧 Share something angsty from your WIP.

more EEAU cause u know i don’t shut up about it

“Sometimes I wonder if I’m even here at all, you know.” Tommy said quietly, squinting slightly at the bright white snow. “Feels like I can’t get out of my head most of the time. I don’t know if I even can be present anymore.” He traced his eyes over the skyline, examining the shapes the tops of the trees made. “I don’t know if I want to be.” He admitted, even more quietly. 

🌪 Sum up a WIP with a few fanfic tropes/AO3 tags

Gonna switch it up and do my own original work Light in Darkness lol uhhhh Hurt/Comfort, and they were roomates (oh my word they were roomates), it gets worse before it gets better, fatal illness, cloning, unethical science - gonna be honest not sure if these are fanfic tropes or not i think they are lol

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Ghostbur & Tommy

Wilbur & Techno

FOR THE DUOOOOO THING

Fuckin love their complicated dynamic. It’s less tommy making ghostbur worse and more the potential for ghostbur to make tommy worse to me. but i think there’s more potential for the two of them to bring out the best in each other

they are such siblings ur honour. I think they can make each other better but I also think that if they hung around each other too much they would drive each other insane LMAO they’re very different people but at the same time get along so well