Letters to Sam [Dylan & Sam]
Dylan knew what he had to do to be with Jack and it consisted of leaving Sam. Sam hasn’t been around much and it was starting to take a toll on Dylan. He wrote out a note addressed to the other before leaving.
Something has come up…darkness…I can feel it everywhere. It’s calling me and I can’t stop it. I am leaving you so I can figure it out. Please don’t look for me. Just know that I love you no matter what happens to me. I don’t want to see you hurt so it’s best I leave.
P.s. there is a letter under the pillow you can read in a few days time
Sam had been busy the last few days keeping the boys entertained and dealing with some other things he was happy about. He wanted to wait and sure before telling Dylan. So he had been making trips to the Indian village to talk with them and get everything in order. Coming home he noticed a note and figured Dylan was gonna late for dinner. As he picked it up his face dropped. How could this happen? Sam was confused, worried. Panicked he ran out of the house and began running the woods screaming at the top of his lungs. “DYLAN! DYLAN WHERE ARE YOU!? DYLAN COME BACK!” Now upset and anxious he began to cry. If Dylan was going through darkness why couldn’t he have come to the male? Sam didn’t like being left alone. Abandoned. He knew Dylan wasn’t trying to, but it felt like his past again. Sitting at the base of a tree he curled up in a ball silently sobbing as he worried for his husband. His best friend. The only person keeping Sam from feeling alone in the world.
Nibs could hear someone crying and he went over to find Sam crying under a tree. “Sam? What are you doing here? Are you Okay?”
Sam looked up and saw Nibs standing there. Wiping his eyes he stood. “I’m fine. It’s nothing.” He said not wanting to have the male around and have Dylan think something was going on. He just didn’t understand what was happening.
Nibs looks at the other, “Its Dylan isn't it?” He asks while noticing how sad Sam was. “Nothing else would make you this sad other than Dylan.”
“It’s nothing to do with you. I can’t let him think something is going on with you. I appreciate you, but if he thinks….I have to be good. I can’t let him think I’m bad again. But why else would he….” Sam was confused as he thought of the note again. And remembered the other note. “I have to go. Just...just ignore me.”
“That's an enchanted bracelet you have on Sam. I know what is going on with Dylan. He got mixed up with some pretty bad people. He won't think anything, that bracelet will prevent you from sleeping with anyone unless you wanted to die until he takes it off.” Nibs responds.
“Nibs I can’t listen to your stories right now. I don’t know if this is one of those things like last time, but I’ve changed. Or I’m trying. Look I just need to wait for Dylan to come back. He has to.” He responded not fully paying attention as his heart ached.
“It's not a story, Dylan got mixed up with a pirate after his heart darkened. The same pirate who happens to be Misty’s father who is hell bent on making her suffer simply because that is the kind of person he is. The person tortures sirens and raped her mother. He probably threatened Dylan into working for him. Misty has been trying to get Dylan away from Jack when you weren't around but I guess we didn't do enough. He won't think we have anything. I am married now and I have a kid.” Nibs responds while trying to comfort the other.
Sam shook his head still not understanding. “Why….why would he be around someone like that? Why didn’t he stay away? It’s that sirens fault. I should have killed him when I had that chance!” He could feel himself getting angry, but he was also too upset to do anything. “He didn’t come to me. He didn’t tell me. Why didn’t he just talk to me?”
“He knows you would fight for him. He knows you wouldn't give up and he knows you wouldn't be safe if you knew the truth. Focus on the kids and I am sure he will come back to make you safe.” Nibs responds while noticing the other being upset still. “You didn't talk about a lot of things with him either…”
“But I never left him. Ya that one time with you, but my head was all clouded and I was so confused. I barely remember what happened. Other than that I’ve never left him. He abandoned me. I know it’s not the truth, but that’s what it feels like and when I need him most too.” Sam sighed turning to Nibs. “What am I supposed to do when I need him and he’s not here. I can’t do it on my own.”
“He will come back for you when you need him. You just have to have faith, you are both still bonded I would assume if you need him he would be able to feel that too.”
Sam nodded still clutching onto the hem of his shirt as he tried to believe what Nibs said was true. “I should get back. I have to explain to the boys that hunting will be cut short. I’ve got too much at the house to do and I can send them on their own.” He said knowing things would be tough until Dylan got back. But he had to do it. Sam couldn’t give up, the boys needed him. “It’s just tough on the boys having their dad disappear like this.”
“I think it would be good to have Stiles pick up some responsibility. He is the oldest and I taught him how to hunt already. Is he doing good with Ken?”
“Ya they are doing good. But the other day Stiles thought it would be fun to play pass the beehive. Poor boys had bee stings for days.” He chuckled at the memory. It was nice to see the two growing up good together. “And the other day they brought home three bunnies cause they were too busy trying to spy on some of the females up at the camp. Ken swears he didn’t look and Stiles swears it was an accident that they ended up in the bushes.”
“Of course he did. I can see Stiles being quite the playboy when he is older. But he will soon learn that spying on girls isn't something you get away with easily.” He lets out a small laugh at the thought of some girl kicking Stiles aas.
Sam just shook his head. “Ya well the other day he start to give me lip and I toss a pancake at him. Caught him so off guard he didn’t talk after that. And now Ken has started collecting lizards. So now I’m finding them throughout the house.”
“Lizards? You should probably get cages for them so you don't accidentally squish them.” He lets out a small laugh at the image of Sam just finding random lizards everywhere.
“Oh I have. I told Ken I’d build a small cage and instead we ended up with like this giant body sized cage. I swear that boy is gonna start bringing home snakes next.” He laughs before pausing. “You wanna come for dinner? I think the boys would enjoy that and I know Stiles has been wanting to see you.”
“Are there even lizards that big on the island? Wait never mind I don't want to know the answer to that. Yeah I can stop by for dinner if you like. I will have to return to the castle to help Misty out by morning though.”
“If that boy brings home a python im gonna hang him in the cage.” Sam laughed as he started off walking. “Oh don’t worry it’s just dinner. You can go after that I won’t keep you.” Sam replied feeling a little bit better. “I was gonna make a simple dinner, chicken with white wine mushroom sauce with a dash of lemon. Quick and easy plus some kabobs for the side.”
Nibs nods his head, “Yeah that's true. That sounds good to eat actually, yeah I wouldn't mind that.”
Sam lead Nibs to the house and rolled his eyes seeing the two boys wrestling in the living room. “Boys we have company.” He said letting Nibs in. “You guys be good, and wash up in 10 minutes. Dinner will be ready.” Sam said heading to the kitchen. “You want wine with dinner Nibs?”
The male shakes his head, “I have been staying away from alcohol.” He responds while watching the two wrestle a bit with a small smile.
“Okay I’ll get you some juice.” He said getting started on the dinner. He carefully washed and prepared the chicken before putting some butter in the pan to cook the breasts. After they turned a nice golden brown he began cutting the mushrooms. “Boys go get ready, dinner in five!” He called out.
Nibs helped by setting the table and getting things ready as Sam finished up doing the things in the kitchen. He also took his seat at the table while the boys went and got cleaned up.
Sautéing the mushrooms and Harding a little wine for taste and the milk he added he chicken then put it on the plates and set the kabobs out. Placing everything on the table he got a glass of wine for himself and three cups of juice for the others. “Ah boys, now remember eat nicely. This isn’t a pig out.” He said taking a seat and began to eat. “Stiles why don’t you tell your father about the buck you almost took down.”
Nibs let the boys take the food first before taking some after. Once he finished he listened to Stiles as to how the other took down the buck. He ate his food as well as listening to the boys bicker about who was the better hunter.
Sam sipped the wine watching the two playfully bicker. “You should bring your kids over one of these days. We can have a bbq, and I’m sure Dylan would enjoy seeing Misty again. It’s been awhile since I’ve seen her. How is she?”
Nibs can only smile as he thinks about it. “Well we only have a baby girl right now. Maybe when she is old enough she can come to play.”
“Yes that would be nice. We would like to have a girl running around, give these two a sister to have around. But who knows if it’ll happen. And with Dyl gone now I have no clue when we will have time.”
“Well if there is one thing I know about both of you is that you always find your way back to each other no matter what happens. Much like his father's did.”
“Oh god if his fathers were still around….I’m pretty sure they would be beating my...behind...right now if it weren’t for these two chipmunks.” He chuckled watching Ken pout about being called a tree animal. “How is it being a father of a girl?”
“Maybe they got over it. I haven't seen either of them around lately. She is beautiful just like her mother.” He can't help but to smile at the thought of Misty.
“You guys really hit it off huh? I’m glad you two are happy, I just wish it wasn’t so messy with Ash. He told me what happened. I’m sorry. Had I known he would do something like that, I would have been around more to stop him.” He didn’t think it was right what Ash did, but he did understand. Even so it didn’t excuse his violence or his words.
“Yeah, Had he not bit her I probably wouldn't have imprinted on her when I did but then again. I don't know. Imprints always have a way of finding each other. Even if it wasn’t the miscarriage there would have been something that caused it happen, it was just a matter of time. It's not your fault. I understand he was angry but the words he said contradict what he was telling me and everyone else. He does that alot...He says things he doesn't mean but he says them in the heat of the moment without thinking...I mean there are plenty of times my anger gets the best of me but I wouldn't say or do those things to someone I love. I wouldn't hurt them like that because once you say those words you can't ever take them back...They always linger in your mind.”
“That’s true, but you also have to understand Ash has never loved someone the way he loved you. Sure he had past people, but you were different. I think he couldn’t handle that cause he’s never had to experience that type of loss. This a whole new thing for him and he’s coming to terms with what he did wrong. I’m glad he’s taking responsibility for it though. It’ll help him get through it all.” Sam didn’t know anything about imprinting so he couldn’t comment. “Don’t know what that is, but I’m assuming it’s when you find a new mate or something. I’m just glad you’ve got someone.”
“Sure he does. Not what I heard when he came to talk to us about wanting to be with Zero. How he wouldn't hurt Zero like he hurt me because he cares about Zero. So don't tell me all this crap about him loving me because if he did, he wouldn't have said the things he did and done the things he had done. That great and all but that doesn't change things if she had died...That is something you can just apologize for. I mean for fucks sake he already took my baby girl away and then to go and do the same to Misty simply because she thought she was falling for me is just completely uncalled for. I understand people have a right to be upset but there is a fine line Sam. He crossed it too many times. Imprint is completely different than a mate. They are a mate for life Sam. You crave to be with them all the time, you want nothing more than to protect them and keep them safe. You miss them miserably when you are without them. They are your one true soulmate and you would risk your life for their happiness.”
“Did you ever consider he left Misty the way you left him? Bleeding out and losing a child? I agree with your points, but at least Misty got to hold her baby and grieve over her. Ash didn’t even get that. He had the miscarriage and you just made it go away, but left the memory. You didn’t even stay to help him through it. That is something, as a parent and partially as family, that I see as wrong. I think Ash felt that he was going to make Misty suffer the way he did, but he didn’t think about the difference in situations. I think even if you hate him and no matter how much you want to kill him, you should let him make it up. Let him do what he can to prove his change to you. After all he is your family no matter how you look at it. By blood Stiles is his nephew, you don’t have to care for him or like him or anything, but when you are ready at least give him a chance. I’ve seen how he is with Zero. It’s different. Ash is different.” Sam said sipping his wine before allowing the boys to be dismissed and take a bath. “If Dylan hadn’t let me do what I did I wouldn’t have changed, if he had abandoned me as he should have I’d most likely be fucking anyone. Even Misty.” He added standing to clear the dishes. “Again I’m not saying he was right, or what he did was okay, but you both have done wrong and neither of you have bothered to make it up to each other. You’re both stubborn, but Ash still respects you as an alpha. He will give in simply because it’s in his dna as a wolf. Give him a task or two to prove to you he’s change. Make them hard if you want, but you need to know one way or another.” He listened about imprinting and thought for a moment. “So do you think maybe that’s me and Dylan? I mean usually two people put through this stuff would have left each other, not fought through it.”
“Alright hold the fuck up. He was able to hold the baby and grieve if he wanted. I only took away and the pain and cleaned up the blood. Anything that happened after was all him. I left before I even knew what was happening. I was waiting for him to come to me and tell me about what happened but he didn’t. Instead he blamed me for not being there when I didn't even know what was going on. I thought he had bad cramps or something or that we had sex to hard and I caused him to bleed. Had I know I wouldn't have left him like that but he never told me anything….Dylan didn't let you do what? There was a reason Dylan never gave up, just as there was a reason as to why I imprinted on Misty when I did. It was all fate, we were destined to be together it was just a matter of time. No, it’s something that you feel and you don’t question it. You just know deep in your heart that you are meant to be for that person, everything else in the world doesn’t matter so long as you have them in your life.”
“From what Ash can recall he didn’t get to hold the baby.” Sam paused thinking for a moment. “Unless…..if Ash wasn’t that far along there wouldn’t be a baby to hold. He didn’t know how far he was and didn’t know he was pregnant till he missed a heat. I’ll have to double check, but….if the baby wasn’t that far then there would only be blood and pain. No baby.” Sam said before shrugging. “Either way it’s in the past and it’s gotta be let go.” Sam laughed washing the dishes. “Ah yes the false love of destiny. But hey who knows, maybe you guys were meant to be. I hope he doesn’t start imprinting on Jack or anyone else he may be sleeping with. I know he’s trying to protect me, but I’d rather him not go through with this. He deserves better and if I could change that and take his place I would.”
Nibs could only let out a small laugh, “Besides, Misty slept with Dylan and Dylan slept with Misty but that was when her emotions were off so the bond wasn’t affected. If he were to imprint on Jack it would have happened by this point. I know he is probably lost in what he is doing but he will find his way back to you, you two always end up doing that. Dylan seems to sleep around quite a lot now a days. Are you sure that doesn’t bother you? I mean do you really trust him that much with others regardless of if his emotions are off because of his darkened heart or not.”
Sam tensed at Nibs words. When did they sleep together? Dylan never said he spent a night with Misty. “What? He slept with her? When? Why? That doesn’t make sense. He said they were only friends. What do you mean sleeping around? He’s not sleeping with anyone.” He said turning to face Nibs confused.
“Are you sure about that? I mean what do you think that he is doing with Jack? What was he doing with Zephyr? Oh so now he is keeping secrets from you...interesting how the tables have turned. So then is he fulfilling your fantasies as he should be? I heard he gets rather rough with Jack. Sometimes I hear them going at it, a few bones breaking and cracking as he fucked Jack nice and hard. It’s weird to hear that asshole moaning Dylan’s name...I don’t know what kind of trouble he got mixed in but Jack is bad news. He tortures sirens and rapes them...does horrible things. You should stay away from him, besides if you came along and Jack became interested in you well….that might cause more problems for the both of you and Jack is extremely unpredictable...but anyway. I know Dylan loves you but at the same time it seems he is doing the exact same thing that you did. I just hope you can save him before he gets any worse. They are just friends, her emotions were off so she did thinks without really thinking about it and with Dylan’s darkened heart I am not surprised, it didn’t meant anything for either of them, I am sure.”
Standing there Sam just stared at Nibs feeling a numbness spreading over him. “He wouldn’t….” He mumbled not liking the sound of what Dylan was doing. Covering his ears he yelled without meaning to. “Stop! He wouldn’t do that! Dylan isn’t that type of person!” Turning from Nibs he tried to calm his shaking as images of what may be happening popped in his head. “It’s not true. It can’t be. Dylan wouldn’t risk losing his family for that. It doesn’t matter, you may think it meant nothing but he once told me it all means something. When he would catch me and I said it meant nothing he said it did. I didn’t understand it till now. I don’t care. I don’t want to talk about it anymore.”
“Alright fine then don’t believe me. Believe that he is sleeping with Jack to keep your family safe then which also could be possible. I mean you were into pain but not very extreme pain were you? Maybe Dylan was too afraid to hurt you or something. I don’t know that sounds like something you two should talk out.”
Turning to Nibs once again he shoved the male a bit. “Hit me. Hit me so I have a reason to find Dylan. Hit me so I can prove I can take it.” Sam was not thinking straight as he ran his hands through his hair frustrated. “I don’t understand. When I was bad he ran off, when I’m good he runs off. When I do nothing he leaves and when I try he still doesn’t want me. What am I doing wrong? How am I not a good husband? Does he think I’m not good enough to have a pack or family with, that I’m not right?”
“He wants you I know that 100%. He is just not going about it in the best way since well he is emotionless. I mean he is acting just as you did. If anything next time he is home just talk to him get him to see your point of view. But I wouldn’t take anything he says personally, I mean losing emotions is a pretty big thing.” He responds while looking at the other.
Sam sighed taking a seat. “Ya you’re right. But no matter how hard I try and no matter how good Dylan is to me, I still have a need to be in other people's beds. At the end of the day I want Dylan. I want to be there when we fall asleep and wake up. I want everything in between, but I also want it in the side. The risk of sex, the rough and wild, the split second of bad choices. But I’ll always come back to Dylan and want to be loved by him and only him. Does it make me a bad person for wanting this?”
“That doesn’t make you a bad person. I mean that is the way that Dylan is acting but that is only because of his darkened heart. I am sure once he comes back and Ombra tires of him, he will be back to being the loyal boy that he was. Then again you should experiment with him while he is like this too see how far you can push him and how far he can push you sex wise...you might learn something interesting about each other by doing so.”
Sam thought for a moment and nodded. He looked at the charm he wore. “You said this is so I don’t cheat, but what if someone else were to do something? Like leave a mark to get Dylan mad? Or if I said someone pinned me down and tried and make me cum?” He asked getting an idea in his head.
“I don’t know I wouldn’t mess with dark Dylan. I mean I could give you one if you want to make him jealous.. I don’t think lying to him is the way to go either, that was what started to push him away in the first place remember?” Nibs shrugs his shoulders at the thought.
“I don’t want to lie, but like you said I want to push him. If I just say that you wanted to make Misty jealous and gave me a small hickey I’m wondering how he would react. Or maybe I make a small bend in truth and say you were slightly tipsy and marked me without thinking? Or I could say a pirate did it.” Sam wanted to test this out. If Dylan was as he was then maybe Sam could find out other things about him.
“Do whatever you like but tread carefully. Push him but not too much.” He responds while looking at the sun setting in the sky, “As much as I loved our talk I should head back now but we can always catch up again soon if you like or if you need someone to talk to about the whole Dylan thing.”
Sam nodded walking Nibs to the door. “Yes we should catch up more. I have a lot to think about in the meantime. Feel free to stop by whenever if you need to talk as well.” He said with a smile.
“Alright will do. See you later Sam.” He smiled before leaving the house and heading back to the castle.
