Minor panic attack today. I have to update my resume and whenever I do that I end up getting a new job or ANOTHER job in addition to the job I have. Since I've been teaching doctoral level students at a local college for two years - I now have to take part in a retention/evaluation process. NERVOUS. IMPOSTER SYNDROME. Please let me channel the energy of Oprah and Quinta Brunson who once chatted about how they've never had imposter syndrome.
Another time I will tell you how hard it is teaching at a college level and how I tricked myself into thinking this year would be easier because I had the "bones" of the course from my first year. I talked to my friend Holly (extraordinary teacher) and she reminded me that it will be 5 years before I have a clue what I'm doing. I have never worked so hard as I did this year and with minimal results...all I can think about are the changes I want to make and how to be a more dynamic teacher.
At the end of the semester, I truly wanted to give up. The cherry on top was the letters with everything I have to do in order to keep teaching came right when I was prepping finals. Like, I'm practically dead from the semester and you want what?!?!?!
