It's really hard for me to believe that all of this hard work and all of these tears and all of this stress will be worth it someday. I know school isn't easy for anyone, especially those who have learning disabilities. But why is it when I ask for help or when I talk about my disabilities, I get bitched at for it? I don't feel like I'm getting much support from anyone, and that's the WORST feeling. My dad offers to help me at least, but it's really hard working on stuff with him. He doesn't understand that I can't keep up with him and he gets so impatient with me. My little brother helps me some, but he makes me feel incredibly stupid. He's a freshman in high school, I'm a freshman in college and he's at a higher level of math than I am. I'm tired of feeling so stupid everyday. I'm tired of crying because I can't figure something out. I don't even know if I want to stay in school now. I don't want to give up, but I'd rather quit now then fail out later. I'm constantly reminded that my sister graduated a 5 year program in only 4 years, and she passed all of her classes. Every single day i'm reminded of this. Guess what? I'm not my sister! I'm not the smart one of us three. I'm not anything compared to them. I wish I was. I wish I could change everything about myself. I wish I wasn't so stupid. I wish I had someone to rely on to help me, without making me feel worse about myself..