CLOSED STARTER FOR @withouthome !
it was really a MIRACLE that zephyr had been able to drag parker out of his hermit life – really, he had been brushing off all questions pertaining to the ball the entire week. it had taken significant arguing and some heavy bags under his eyes to convince his friends and hall mates it was for the best. and now, classical music was screaming into his ears ( a not so gentle reminder of a friend he had hurt ), making him miss the safety and security of his silent dorm room. it was getting to be all too much – his head was ringing ( no thanks to the shots of liquor he had downed far too quickly ), and every time he chatted to his peers and glanced around, he felt more and more uneasy, like he would UPSET someone without meaning to. he had been doing a lot of that lately.
the claustrophobic feeling of the ballroom had prompted parker to excuse himself from his current conversation to get some air. and god … the DAMNED mask.
it had certainly helped a little when he wanted to avoid people – side glances could only linger for so long before masked figures would get lost in the crowds. he pushed the door to the hallway open with his elbow, undoing the silk tie of his mask. the increased field of vision at least made his head stop hurting a little.
but with his renewed sight came an image he wasn’t certain he was ready to see that night. a figure appeared in his view, one with a body so FAMILIAR he needn’t glance up to see the face that accompanied it to see who it was. every curve, the complexion of her skin, he knew all too well. he wouldn’t have even needed to see the dress she wore, but that was familiar too. not just because he had bought it himself, but because it was engrained in his brain – he could VIVIDLY remember the way the fabric felt bunched up in his fingers.
it was all too much, memories flooding into parker’s mind completely unwarranted, exacerbating the headache he had already sustained. he had half a mind to just turn and walk the other way like he had always done – but if he was already hurting so much, what was the risk of hurting a little more?
parker glanced up for the first time, allowing himself to drink in blaire’s features ( albeit somewhat hidden by her mask ) for the first time in months. he had previously refrained from stealing glances at her during class or imperium meetings, not wanting to feel the hurt that would inevitably come from looking her in the eye. but … it had been months. months. if he couldn’t even look at blaire now without hurting, then he was the FOOL. how pathetic would that have been? to be dumped, and not be able to move on? but he felt the pain again – a deep pit in his stomach. when he tried to look into her familiar, hazel eyes. he could tell she was just as uncomfortable as he was, by the way she tried to accelerate past him, but parker needed her. he needed her to say something. “blaire, wait!” he exclaimed, rushing over to her and grabbing her hand gently, the softness of her skin surprising him – it had been so long, he had forgotten what her touch felt like.