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@nuitvelvet showed me a sketch I recognized as the first chapter of my fic and then had the audacity to say he wasn't sure he'd ever finish it... yeah no I couldn't let that happen u3u

he let me add some color to it and I'm super grateful for that!! go check his blog out and give him some love ^^ his style is absolutely adorable♡

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—Vas a ser la peor de mis distracciones, Mail Jeevas.

El ángel caído - Capítulo 26: Metamorfosis

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El ángel caído – Capítulo 4: Mihael [Mello] Keehl

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El ángel caído – Capítulo 5: Mail [Matt] Jeevas

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—Todos venimos al mundo con una razón, Matt. La fe nos lo recuerda. Por eso perderla es tan peligroso, y por eso estás tan triste. Yo todavía no sé bien para qué me quiere el Señor aquí. Pero aquí sigo, porque todavía no me llama con Él. —¿Y no es algo cruel que el Señor la tenga aquí sufriendo? —¿Acaso no me permitió eso estar aquí hoy para consolarte?

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—Eres El Tuerto, ¿verdad? —No, ese es mi primo. Yo soy “el de los ojos bonitos”, no te jode…

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Empecé a escribir El ángel caído hace un año y aquí sigo... Bien lejos del final y habiendo escrito solo dos capítulos durante todo el hiatus (y no pretendo actualizar hasta tener mínimo unos siete capítulos de margen). Tengo la cabeza infestada con ideas de fanarts para el fic, y ni me siento a dibujarlas ni me siento a escribir porque no tengo tiempo libre Y ESO ME CONSUME EL ALMAAAA El año pasado tuve más tiempo libre, por eso escribí tanto, pero este año voy a estar trabajando y estudiando... Si no le doy escape a toda esta podredumbre de mellodramattic que me consume el cerebro, yo me bajo de la vida. Si alguien me está leyendo (que lo dudo, pero me apetecía desahogarme) ponedme una velita y rezadme un padrenuestro o algo ajdjakdkal

(Necesito un milagro)

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5 & 29 for el ángel caído!!

5. What do you wish someone would ask you about El ángel caído? Answer it now!

"Is Mello high, or is he actually talking to his mom?!"

I feel like this is something a reader who took the time to translate from Croatian would ask, because I made it ambiguous enough that it might not even stand out. It’s not really that relevant XD While researching ketamine, I found out it can cause hallucinations, and I thought that was the perfect excuse to include that element.

I’m a huge nerd for parapsychology and the occult, precisely because of how little scientific backing it has. And since Mello is religious, this felt like the perfect chance to add that in. He’s got one foot in the grave (okay, not really, he’s actually very stable, but he’s 19, he’s been through hell, and he has every right to be as dramatic as possible kasdfbhakjbdfh), so I wanted to play with that idea.

Like I said, it’s open to interpretation, but personally, I love the idea that, yes, his mother is there, watching over him and waiting until his time comes (in two months XDD) so they can reunite and move on together. But hey, if you’re more of a logical thinker, you can totally blame it on the drugs hahaha

(Let’s keep in mind that I have zero medical knowledge, thank you, bye XD)

Another question: "Does Matt have ADHD?" Yes (I also kept this vague because it’s not super relevant to the plot). "Does he know he has it?" Nope. "Nadiu, you absolute piece of shit, why doesn’t he know?!" Because I made Wammy’s House messed up enough that there wouldn’t be a psychologist available for the kids. It’s the late ‘90s / early 2000s, and there’s so much misinformation. I can’t imagine anyone back then even considering that being gifted could come with other disorders (and I totally picture all the kids masking like absolute pros). To the adults, they’re just a bunch of ridiculously smart kids, some weirder than others, and that’s it.

That lack of awareness also explains why Matt has a completely wrong idea of autism. When he first meets Near, he doesn’t know how to interact with him because he assumes all the stereotypical clichés about autism. That’s where his initial disdain comes from. And yet, for some reason, he relates to certain traits... ;D (but he will never question why XD)

I like to think that Near’s arrival at Wammy’s House, with his autism being so obvious, was what finally shook things up. I imagine he was the first kid to make them stop and actually rethink things, so they started handling everything in a healthier way ^^

There are more questions I could answer, but they’d be spoilers and, after all, I will solve them in the fic in future chapters XD

29. What songs would be (or are) on a playlist for El ángel caído? Explain your choices if you want!

Yeah, okay, I’m not gonna explain all my choices because this would get way too long, and I’m also not listing every song (there are at least 100 in the playlist askdbfkjhbdfahkd) Some songs are there just for the vibes (one of the perks of not fully understanding English: who cares about the lyrics hahhaha) For example, Gorillaz and Fujiya & Miyagi (Pussyfooting♡) just scream Matt’s whole universe. A solid bassline instantly transports me to El ángel caído’s atmosphere. When I want to write but lyrics distract me, I put on No Clear Mind because their music is mostly instrumental (with a sad and melancholic vibe hehe). So... yeah, what a mix hahha

Some songs in the playlist actually fit parts of the fic beyond just the vibes (if you ignore certain lines XD). They spark my imagination, so here are a few (just a handful, I’m trying to keep this short and I'm failing at it):

Howlin’ for You – The Black Keys We Are Born When We Die – Apollo Sunshine Stay on the Outside – Whitey Demon Fire – AC/DC Iron – Woodkid Lose Your Soul – Dead Man’s Bones Low Lays the Devil – The Veils Get Some – Lykke Li Miss You – The Rolling Stones Keeper – Reignwolf like you’re god – mehro Sinister Kid – The Black Keys Personal Jesus – Depeche Mode Sinnerman – Nina Simone You Give Love A Bad Name – Bon Jovi I Hate Myself for Loving You – Joan Jett & the Blackhearts No Good – Kaleo Gun In My Hand – Dorothy Devil Like You – Gareth Dunlop