What's it called when you fluctuate soft gender energy but never feel completely male or female??? The rest is hard to explain. I think the best way to describe it is feeling dead mentally, physically, and gender wise
I couldn’t find anything that matched exactly, but here are some ideas:
Mollgender - A gender identity that is largely related to a certain gender, but feels soft, as if it has blurred into other genders. Used as mollgirl, mollboy, mollinonbinary, etc or a gender that is quiet, soft and subdued. Can be used to mean a gender that feels gentle, not too present or blurred somehow.
Gendercollector - When your gender is fluid or flux, but you can’t find just a few terms to describe what your fluctuating gender is, so you “collect” gender terms that fit you
Necrogender - A gender that used to exist but is now ‘dead’ or nonexistent.
Energender - A gender that seems to be like a ball of energy, shifting and moving rapidly and not being able to be quite pinned down, though its basic components are somewhat known, such as being partially female, partially male, partially anything really, but there being more core genders that are harder to pin down.Can be combined with relevant genders.