ok so I watched the episode this morning when it came out and I couldn't lb because i was on my way to work but I had so many thoughts in my mind when i watched that i need to get out of my system !
domestic robron !!! so soft, and aaron's little shadow of smile when robert steals his bread and leaves 🥹
still haven't recovered from the scene we got as a spoiler - chris coghill is just so so good in his mannerisms and the way he holds himself with his arms crossed in the back adn moves his arms and hands (pointing at robert, the brain operation thingy), imo it just conveys so well the energy (positive or negative) kev has in him
about robert's lies - i just want to hold him close and tell him
the way vic says "vicar" oh my god i love this and the british accent as well
everything's gonna be ok, that someone is gonna take care of him in a healthy way. the guy keeps spinning lies upon lies and it's eating him alive. it's worrying but also kind of endearing to see that he wants to keep both lives separate at all costs, ignoring all the red flags and warnings because he is persuaded he can fix things his way, because he is the guy that fixes things !!
i can't just pinpoint in what way we can see that robert acts differently around kev from aaron, but the change in attitude is just subtle but noticeable enough (maybe something like joy (big quotation marks here) ? an "everything's absolutely fine" attitude, as not to trigger kev into becoming violent at all costs ? but with aaron we can see it's more raw and more painful deep down, he is less cheerful ? idk) - kudos to ryan for this.
the fact that robert keeps exhaling the way an anxious person does to try and get rid of the weight on their chest - been there, done that, and it's not a pleasant thing to live
spiderman meme when aaron meets kev !!! and robert's glance behind the wall please i nearly pissed myself laughing - but also i wanna know what robert told kev about aaron
it's always interesting to see robert's brain just going full speed eveytime he sees kev to find an explanation to the way he acts as not to anger him - anxiety brain always seeing the worst that's gonna happen and trying to find one thousand solutions to avoid that and never stopping thinking and it's just so exhausting in the end
how convenient that kev doesn't wanna be "out and proud" yet !!!!
what does celia do exactly besides appearing out of thin air in moira's kitchen and standing somewhere and not moving for god knows how long ??
i just know that The Scar is gonna be at the center of the prison episode and i can't wait for it
I kinda hate myself for thinking that "you saved me first" is kinda cute bc I feel like kev genuinely loves robert but at the same time, how can their relationship be healthy when it was born inside a place where its the survival of the fittest, where the power relationships are so inbalanced ? and it's so telling for me that robert closes his eyes and doesn't move when kev tries to kiss him - like he has given up, he is fully passive in this, that he just lets his body be used by kev because he OWES him for having saved him in prison and what better way to thank him for having protected him is to give away his body, even if he hasn't fully consented to it ??
more domestic robron !! and robert barefoot as opposed to his full on clothing armour when he sees kev
i screamed when robert refused to tell aaron about kev and his time inside !!! i know it's useful bc it's gonna give us more angst in the future (and i love some angst obviously), but god, it would have been so easy because aaron was handing the solution to robert on a silver platter, trying to defuse the situation and give robert a safe space with, no judgement, to talk about what happened inside, bc i feel like he senses that something is not right in this situation, and then robert says no ??? my self destructing boy, i can't with you
"that part of my life is over" my bby boy trying to compartmentalize, again, and it's blow in his face, again <3
please let them go to therapy, will be my conclusion
