#eelo rambles

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life update accidentally becoming an engineer

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back on here with weird health issues, chest pain when I breathe and an inability to sleep cuz of that

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back on tumblr cuz it's october already and I miss you lunatics

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Shut the fuck up he messaged me I am so giddy, rolling on the ground rn

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I actually may or may not have met a pretty cute guy, I've no idea where any of that will lead me if anywhere but yeaa he's nice and idk I'm banging my head against the wall and barely got a wink of sleep cause of how giddy I was

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just beat hades 2 32 fear underworld after dying about a million times and I feel like just- no words for it, I am going to bite the screen and kick chronos in the balls is how I feel

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currently watching the bear season 3 and my anxiety levels are thru the roof, I love it but my heart can't take this it hits too hard

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sometimes i recall memories, usually of being cringe, tho what I usually cringe at myself for is trying to impress people, trying to speak so smart and elegant and pompously. am I really so low that I must stand on my toes to tower over others? then I recall i am still learning, we are still young and experiencing. we are all being cringe in our own right because if i am not cringe now when else will i be? and then i remember i don't remember others being cringe and why is that? cuz we are all egoist to an extent. i can never remember others being cringe because i am too focused on myself and that means those people i worry about don't remember me being cringe. so that's probably a good thing.