#electrician bf

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i just don't understand how you don't miss me in the shower and remember how my rain-soaked body was shaking. do you hate me?

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YOU COULD CALL ME BABE FOR THE WEEKEND. IF YOU EVEN CARE

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i have a first date on saturday <3333333 losing my shit my heart is so full <3333333

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let it happen new fav song on tsou because i'd bet all my money that i will lose to you and hand you my life here's to hoping you're worth all my time i might barely know you but still don't love you yet but probably will turn me into something tragic just for you, i let it happen!!!!!!

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do i objectively know that i only miss the idea of him and that i wasn’t attracted to him and that we wouldn’t have made it in the long term because of that? YES. do i miss him and think about him and still talk about him and when i listen to sad songs i think about him? ALSO YES

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don’t love you yet but probably will!!!!!!

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t-minus 1 hour 30 minutes until my first date!!!!!

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it's just that..... if i wanted to know who you were hanging with while i was gone i would have asked you. i have this dream you're doing cool shit, having adventures on your own. you meet some woman on the internet and take her home. but if it's all the same to you, it's the same to me. i'm doing good, i'm on some new shit. there's an ache in you put there by the ache in me. i thought i saw you at the bus stop, i didn't though. you know the greatest films of all time were never made. you know the greatest loves of all time are over now. so we could call it even, you could call me babe for the weekend. i'm stayin' at my parents' house. it would've been fun if you would've been the one. if you never bleed, you're never gonna grow and it's alright now. now i'm missing your smile, hear me out. we could just ride around. the road not taken looks real good now and it always leads to you. if my wishes came true, it would've been you. in my defense, i have none. for never leaving well enough alone. and it's another day waking up alone. i escaped it too, remember how you watched me leave. but if it's okay with you, it's okay with me. but we were something, don't you think so? if one thing had been different, would everything be different today? even though i'm leavin' and i'll be yours for the weekend. and it would've been sweet if it could've been me. it always leads to you. it would've been fun if you would've been the one.