#em's rambles

[emfaeri]

Welcome In!

My name is Emfaeri but you can just call me Em! I'm 27 and have been writing fanfiction off and on for the better part of 10 years, some of my works are popular in certain fandoms already! You might recognize some of my mannerisms but shhhh. My birthday is July 13th and a cancer and I'm honestly an open book for any other personal questions you might have.

Currently I'm only going to write for The Freak Circus and I will take requests soon!

Some General Disclaimers Below

Minors DNI

This goes without saying but I am writing for an 18+ subject and I will be covering topics that aren't appropriate for minors. Nor do I feel comfortable interacting with minors in general, again I am 27 and this is a boundary I will enforce. This fandom already has a problem with minors consuming content and I will not cater to the issue.

Do's and Don't's for Requests!

My askbox will primarily remain open for conversations but I might not always be taking requests at that time, make sure to check the status in the bio of my blog before sending in requests! I reserve the right to deny a request if I feel uncomfortable with the idea or feel as if I can't meet the expectation. Depending on the reason for the denial I might answer it with an explanation or just outright delete it from my inbox. This is definitely not my first rodeo with taking requests and I am a person behind the screen at the end of the day. Try to keep requests as basic as possible! We all have our own ideas of our versions of MC or even our own OC's. I am a firm believer in inclusivity when it comes with requests and if an ask is super detailed it will leave a lot of people out from enjoying the "X Reader" style of writing I'm accustomed to. Not to mention it's a personal ick for me to scroll through "x reader" tags and find "x OC" content instead. This being said however, I can swing vague ideas of MCs, such as Flirty!Reader, Mute!Reader, Black!Reader, etc. This also goes without saying too, TFC is a constantly evolving story with an amazing creator who gives us lore drops routinely. I do my best to keep up with the AMA's and lore snippets but I will definitely write something OOC/something already talked about in a lore piece I missed. Have mercy on my old soul! Because of the nature of TFC I will be covering "Dead Dove" topics that include but are not limited to gore, violence, traumas/abuse, self harm, death, sexual assault/sex in general. I WILL tag these works accordingly at the beginning of the post as well as in the tags so you can filter them accordingly. Please notify me if I missed a tag or potential trigger! Below will be a full list of trigger tags that I will update as I post: #tw selfharm, #tw experimentation, #tw blood, #tw voyeurism

Rules For My Askbox

I'm really lax when it comes to conversations, my only real rule for sending in mail would be to be respectful of myself as well as others/the community. I present myself as very positive and kind but I also play competitive games with my mic on, so I will punch below the belt if need be. I'll also tie in my right to just delete messages in my inbox with no follow-ups if things get out of hand or if a topic is just unapproachable.

I'm also an adult and have a life outside of these four digital corners so I might not always be able to get to my inbox consistently, I am doing this for my love for TFC and writing in general after all.

Enjoy my Shop!

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[communicore]

My Jack Griffin corner!!

Not pictured: My pins and the book and vest

[meeisemm]

Em's Going Away...♡

...lol for a short while. Nothing bad happened np! Just saw my screen time and realised it's time to drop the phone a little-

So imma take a break and try not using the phone too much (i might still log on and off but yea).

I also have really bad dry eyes which is interfering with my classes a lot. So fingers crossed this is help with that too.

See y'all soon! I smell an exam on the horizon so hopefully after that I'll be rejuvenated and back!

Srsly tho im okay and see you guys soon! Love yall mwah!

[emismee]

hey angel. your writing is beautiful, and so i just wanted to ask for some advice...

i used ai a little to help me with writing as english isn’t my first language, before learning how harmful it is, and i don’t remember what parts of my writing has been helped with ai, so i don’t know what to do 😭 i don’t wanna use it anymore, but i don’t know what to do with what i’ve already written (because it is like 98% my own)

what do i do? :(

Thank you for opening up sweetheart.

This isn't easy to admit and I feel you. So first of all, good on you for wanting to change.

Now coming to what you can do, if majority of what you wrote is your own and there are areas you are genuinely happy with that you wrote then leave it be. Don't delete it because then you'll regret it because well...it is YOUR work. Not a pure AI slop.

Though using AI to write isn't good because especially here in tumblr we THRIVE in the human-ness of writing. The grammatical errors even after midnight editing, the forgotten spell check that leaves "breakfast" spelt as "nreskfat" (been there done that) and every nuance to a post that makes it YOURS!

Writing isn't something you can assess and rank. You aren't better than anyone nor are you worse. You are just a person wanting to put their thoughts and ideas into words and sharing it to people for free! There is beauty in that regardless of any worry you'd have about your language.

I understand. English isn't my first language either and im sure there are mistakes even in this post. But I still want to write.

In the end all I can say is my opinion so I'll share it. Leave the written works youve already done. Start making each post your own now. You don't have to announce it nor do you have to compare it with your previous posts. Write whatever you want now love. I assure you there will be people who love it. And if you lose followers or people stop interacting? Let them leave.

Those who stay will be fortunate enough to enjoy everything you share with us, love. ♡

I for one am excited. Because seeing someone realise something and change for the better? That's bravery right there. :)

Keep it at, sweetheart. And id love to read your new posts! Dm me or send em over if you'd like!

Take care and loads of hugs! ♡♡

[birinboom]

내 트리를 꾸며줘!

트리를 밝히고 세상을 밝혀요💡

IT'S TIME AGAIN!!!

[overactiveprefrontalcortex]

whatever they were feeding him in s1, why tf did they stop

[calidrisminuta]

Personal, might delete later...

I wish I could get my confidence back. Things happened a little while ago and my confidence to post anywhere other than Bluesky just crumbled because of it. It took me a while to get even these words out here.

I got hurt in my previous fandom when drama flared up, and while the hurt has gone away, the fear of it happening again hasn't. So any time something - anything remotely drama-like happens, fandom or not - my fears come back to the surface and I start overthinking and worrying and ultimately, I hold back. My confidence to say even the most normal of things just breaks.

I know this is my problem to deal with, but I honestly thought I'd made progress on it. Apparently not. I always did say I was too soft, too weak, too timid for the internet. I'm fine with smaller groups or just one-on-one, so that might be what I need to do until I get my confidence back.

I'll get there, I know I will. But I really thought I'd made progress...

[whereubeenloca]

What's Claire's Deal Though?

Here is a collection of thoughts that I have regarding Claire x Carmy. I've posted my psycho thoughts on other platforms, but I feel like this is a better place to keep them. Apologies for the formatting, I just wanted to get this out. Ramblings under the cut.

First things first, Claire is not a manic pixie dream girl (in my opinion). Does that mean she's well-written? No. But, she serves an important narrative purpose in terms of Carmy's arc.

Claire as Carmy's Past

Claire is the classic childhood crush archetype. She knows his family, his friends, and the name of the restaurant he wants to open without any intervention from him. She doesn't need to be introduced like a regular girlfriend would. Claire perfectly slots into Carmy's life with zero resistance. She doesn't have to get to know him because she already knows him. Despite this, Carmy still struggles to understand their relationship. He still sees her as the girl he had a crush on rather than the woman he is dating.

Despite being the protagonist- Carmy is incredibly static. He finishes season 2 as he started it and spends season 3 regressing. Every other character has changed, even the restaurant itself has evolved. Carmy is still in the beef.

Claire as the fixer

Claire works in the medical field. When she tells the story of how she became interested in medicine Carmy assumes she wanted to learn to "fix things" when in reality she wanted to "understand how it works". This is Carmy projecting onto Claire, he continues to do it in season 3, referring to her as "peace". Carmy sees Claire as his out, the person who is finally going to fix him.

When he dates her in season 2 and things still fall apart, he lashes out, not because she didn't fix him, but because he thinks he is unfixable.

Claire as wish fulfillment

During Carmy's seven-minute monologue in season 1, he laments about not going to parties, not having girlfriends, and not having friends in high school. While no one else in the series sees Carmy as any different for not reaching these milestones, Carmy sees himself as "broken" for not meeting them. These wounds follow him into his adult life, and he sees his relationship with Claire as a way to remedy that.

The party scene stands out to me. It frames Claire and Carmy's relationship in a juvenile light. Claire invites Carmy to a house party where he gets mistaken for someone else. He rolls with it and suddenly he's the funny life of the party that he so badly wants to be. The party ends with the police being called and they run off like teenagers.

Claire is also his childhood crush. She's the girl he always wanted to go out with but never had the balls to ask. Dating her as an adult heals his bruised teenage ego.

Claire and work-life balance

Claire works a high-stress job as does Carmy. Interestingly enough, she can still maintain a work-life balance while he can't. Claire leaves her work at work, has friends she doesn't work with, goes to parties, and has time to date. Carmy struggles to juggle managing a restaurant with the talking stage of a relationship. He constantly thinks about work and the only people he has in his life are people he met through The Bear.

This is another instance of Carmy seeing Claire as an out. It's also a moment where he is comparing himself to Claire. He sees her as this amazing person who saves lives but still has time for herself and wonders why he can't do that. This leads to their downfall as a couple, comparison is the thief of joy.

Closing thoughts

While I don't love Claire and Carmy as a relationship, I do see her narrative significance in the show. She is one of the many forces trying to drag him back to his past life and the only way for Carmy to progress is to not end up with her.

Also hot take I guess: I don't think she needs to be a multi-dimensional character to have an important role in the story. I'd rather the limited time be used on the other characters in the cast rather than fleshing her out.

It's a bummer Claire is basically just a plot point, but her inclusion explores a side of Carmy's character that we never saw before.