(**slight bit of a vent about something recently still happening to me...**)
I feel like my feelings and wishes don't matter to some. Ah feel like I'm close with a self-centered person that I won't name for privacy reasons, who only cares about their own wishes and wants me to full-fill them with them... For example roleplays. That's something that has been happening recently and even ever since this summer... Now these few days I was recently telling her that I don't want to roleplay now cause I'm not in a mood, and yesterday, she was a slight bit pushy about it before she finally let me be for the rest of the day... And we constantly did their roleplays and their ideas this one month or so. And they don't even bother asking me what I would like to roleplay with them, like, my ideas...
*clutching my head* That's also even with art ideas.. I don't care if they're Hero 108 related, I only take them when I ask for them and even from my friends and bffls I genuienly full-on trust. And even a couple of times, we did art trades together, but they would make something for me that I didn't even tell them to do... And especially automatically started an art trade with me without asking me first... I feel like I'm with a little child, and not someone who's in their teens and has already should've known better how to treat others, if they want to be treated the same...
I also feel like she's kinda clingy to me, and she even unhealthly, obssesively loved me... Now they don't really, but still, it's like I'm a robot for creating joy for them.. I'm also still trying to give her some advices and lessons to change, but I'm not sure if she'll seriously take them serious and important, but I get that she's also scared on losing me as her bff.... But still.... I have my limits.
And again... I truly want to also be asked about my ideas, my wishes, my desires... Especially when in a friendship with someone, or a lot of people in my Big Group... Is that too much to ask for?...
Am sorry everyone for so suddenly having this mood swing, but I had to vent this out what's been going on to me lately... I wanted to vent this yesterday, but I didn't want any of y'all my brave heroes and friends to see me so sad, upset, and even angry to say, so suddenly... T_T; 💔