Is going to start taking my anti depressants and anxiety pills again because the people I spent last night/this morning with made me realize destroying myself was fucking stupid, pointless and selfish because there's so much beauty in the world, in people, in life. Thank you Emily, for having one of your homely gatherings that are always splendid. And thank you for letting my 'friend' come with me. I love you, you are my sunshine. My only sunshine. You make me happy when skies are gray. You'll never know dear how much I love you, so please don't take that sunshine away. Thank you caitykins. For always being your amazing self. Sorry we didn't spend more time together. But it's okay, we will have many more dates and sleepovers. You can be my valentine if you want, I know I do <3 but really you're the sweetest thing and I love you with all my heart. Mina my wifey, you're my little snuggle buddy. Thank you for massaging my knees and elbows. I miss you and all the stuff we do together. I'm your baby girl and you're my baby boo forever and ever. And lastly had my first new years kiss with someone who actually means the world to me. Things may have been hard for us last year but I know it's going to be just perfect with us because you make me happy with just a smile, a look, a touch. I love you and I know for sure it'll be okay this time because you love me too and I couldn't wish or have anything more lovely than that. I hope all of you had a happy new years. If last year wasn't so good just imagine the wonderful possibilities this new/fresh year has brought. Keep your hopes up high, reach for your dreams and don't forget how special and perfect you are. I love you, in the way you bring a kindness or uniqueness to this world.
