#emotionallyfucked

[itsneversafeinsunnydale]

Can we really talk about how Ive dealt with so many emotionally manipulating people in every part of my life that I have trust issues in my new friendships and relationships? I never know if I'm just paranoid or if I should actually keep an eye out.

[thatttfc]

Hitting rock bottom again. Holy fuck. Celebrating Independence Day, when you’re imprisoned mentally.

[drearose143]

September 26, 2016: Watching season 3 of HTGAWM ending like… #icantfuckingeven #htgawm #emotionallyfucked

[justpartof-thenoise]

Enlightenment ... Sort of?

So I have stepped back into the world that is ANIME and I forgot how emotional I fucking get. This is regression not progression T.T but its sooooo addicting. Too addicting

[avintagekindoflove]

Me being responsible in a relationship: "Okay so I'm trying really hard to not feel anything tonight because I'm sad SO 1. I'm going to be super cold and distant and probably a bitch but please don't hate me cause 2. I'm then going to fall apart at some point and need you to comfort me forever and not ask questions Sorry for being an emotionally fucked and abusive asshole I do love you a lot I'm sorry"

[burritobuckets]

"He didn't do ANYTHING to you!"

When I was 14 years old, a boy in my grade became my friend. We texted a lot, and we were good friends. But he was manipulative, and I had no clue how to deal with people like that. I didn’t even really know what manipulation was. When I was 15, he got me at my absolute lowest point and took my virginity. Then, to top it all off, instead of getting support, people got mad at ME, calling me a slut and calling me stupid, messing me up even more. So after all that, I told him he makes me uncomfortable and to stay away from me. Needless to say, he wasn’t very good at that. A year later, at 16, he tried to be my friend again. He tried getting back into my life. But I stopped it right away.  Today, at 17 years old, he still makes me incredibly uncomfortable, even hearing his voice. Today, I was sitting at lunch with my friends, some of which talk to him. He came over, knowing I was there, knowing he makes me uncomfortable. I didn’t think it was such a big deal, because I can’t help that he talks to some of the people I sat with.  As a joke, I took a snapchat video of him with the caption “why the fuck are you here?” yes, immature, but I didn’t do anything with it. I deleted it right after I took it. I showed it to my friend sitting next to me before deleting it, and he laughed. This friend knows how the boy effected me and what he did to me. The one next to him, however, did not understand. He asked “what did you just show him?” and I said “a video and I just said ‘why the fuck are you here?’” Freaking out at me, he says, “why do you need to be like that?” I laughed. He said, “no, I’m serious, he did NOTHING to you, he hasn’t even talked to you, so why are you being so stupid about it?”  Looking at him, I say, “you do not understand the extent of how uncomfortable he makes me. It doesn’t matter if he didn’t do anything to me right at this moment. it doesn’t mean he hasn’t.” I walked away to go to the trash can. When I come back, the boy, offended, says, “Seriously, he hasn’t done anything to you. Just stop its so stupid. he didn’t do anything. He’s not looking at you or anything.” (yes, he actually was, not that it was a big deal.) I was close to crying, because I’m still emotionally fucked up about what had happened to me. And at 15 years old too. having somebody say “he didn’t do anything to you” when I had my virginity taken at 15, my emotions and actions effected for the worst, my grades drop, and being emotionally fucked for a year, that pisses me off. I took a bag of popcorn and threw it on him. I’ve done this to the same person once before, as he was being disrespectful towards myself and women and took me as a pushover.  Angrily, he says, “What the fuck, what did he ever do to you? Seriously, you…” I cut him off, looked at him and said “Enough. ENOUGH. Stop talking and listen, I’ve thrown food on you before and I’ll do it again if I have to. I don’t care if I’m being a bitch. I’ll be a bitch if I need to.” And when he tried to talk again, a girl standing near us told him to shut up and to stop talking, understanding my frustration. So basically, the moral of this story is: if you need to be a bitch while defending yourself, DO IT. You will almost always seem like a “bitch” standing up for yourself, but my god, let me tell you. it’s worth it. Be strong. Love yourself. ❤️ 

[stoptryingtostealmyheart]

I actually don't want to talk to anyone and push everyone away but at the same time I want someone to see I'm not okay and love me? What are you doin' gurl.

[wordsbyrae]

I seriously trust no one. I think everything that comes out of people's mouth is an avalanche of bullshit. I think individuals are shady before they are trust worthy. I expect a liar. I never feel people are being truthful. I feel like there are very few people in this world who sincerely give a fuck about others and who will selfishly emotionally abuse, mistreat, and hurt another individual with no remorse.