Dec 26, 2019
In 2020? This girl’s gonna be happy. It’s all I really want. Happiness.
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In 2020? This girl’s gonna be happy. It’s all I really want. Happiness.
Jared
I just want to hang out with Jared Padalecki and lie on a couch with him and laugh and play with his fingers and talk about the world.
That’s it.
Nothing else.
That would make me incredibly happy.
Tumblr Experiment
I’m doing a thing for a research thing. All I need you to do is to like this post if you have ever read or seen anything at all from my blog. That’s it. No reblog needed, no comments needed. Just a like.
I have an interesting theory I will share when I have the results.
Thank you :)
Just playing with filters and thought I looked kinda good so that’s a huge step up from yesterday so I thought I’d share:):)
Being an empath
I have 7 kids living with me, as some of you know. Some kicked out for being trans, some are SO/s of said kid. (They are all 18). All of them have a mental illness. Bi Polar, anxiety, depression, alcoholism, joblessness, dropped out of high school...
And tonight one of them got drunk and screamed and punched his face into a picture, glass everywhere. Screaming at his SO and everyone else was trying to diffuse the situation. Lots of screaming, lots of arguing, lots or stoping around.
It escalates.
He runs out of the house screaming, “Fine, I’ll fucking leave!” top of his lungs screaming. I run after him, find him in the street, sobbing. I had one other kid join me and we sat in the street where I promised him I’d never leave him, and that I will always help him, and that I love him.
He tried to run into the busy road perpendicular to ours and we had to pull him to the ground.
Finally after about 30 minutes and me shivering in the cold and holding him and promising him any help he needed. He pinky promised me he would go down that path.
I promised to take him as long as he understood it would be hard, and painful, and he’d want to give up but that I wouldn’t leave him. He promised. But there was more. he said mean horrible things to my kid and her boyfriend.
Everyone’s angry. And worried and...whatever else.
So I’m dealing with resentment, fury, anger, fear, loneliness, and more. This has been a very very hard night.
My being an empath has left me so incredibly tense and fucked in the head. I’m feeling all of this and it’s overwhelming.
But damn, I’m needed here. he fucking clung to me. His own mom kicked him out because he’s trans. He has so many issues. He needs help to launch. I just hope he knows I won’t ever leave him.
God, I’m in so much pain right now.
I was so calm and patient the whole fucking time I’m so fucking proud of myself.
I was the needed adult and I fucking did it.
But my shoulders are screaming.
I’ll either not sleep or I’ll have nightmares.
Being an empath is a blessing and a curse
Today
I give up.
I hurt SO MUCH right now.
My back and shoulders are fucking killing me.[For those who don’t know, I have scoliosis and 2 metal rods fused to my spine (when I was 12).]
My body has been waking up every morning at 6:00. I hate mornings, it’s when i hurt the most. It takes almost an hour to get comfortable and settled.
and...[just negativity below. No one needs that shit, so just keep scrolling...]
love and hate
@charliebradbury1104 @maddiepants @katiecurls75 @deanplease @hawaiianohana31 @babypieandwhiskey
Thank you for lifting me up. For sending me love.
Unfortunately I got hate too.
Love is stronger than hate.
But it still hurts, ya know?