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July 21: Think of five things that are usually endearing or touching.
This entry has been difficult to answer because I hardly ever pay attention to the specific things I find endearing or touching. I just know I get that reaction sometimes, but I don’t make a list of what caused it, you know? Anyway, after an extremely long time thinking about this, here are the 5 things I could come up with:
When people remember random things about me that I don’t bring up often. For example, once I casually said I don’t like ketchup or anything barbecued and a friend of mine remembered it months later when someone offered something barbecued to me.
When people defend me. Very few people stand up for me when others (or even myself) put me down or do something unfair to me, so when it happens, I’m a goner.
When people go out of their way to do something they know I’ll like. Again, very few people have taken the time to know me well and then use that information to do something nice for me, so I appreciate it when it happens.
When something comes up but people still make me a priority. I’m used to being unimportant to the people around me. There’s always been something better or more relevant than me, so when people make ME a priority even though all odds are against it, I can even cry.
When people say they love me but tell me why with meaningful words and actions. Because of my profession, I’m used to hearing “I love you, teacher” all the time. I also know those 3 words usually mean nothing. The people who have hurt me the most have told me they loved me more than once, so I’ve kinda learned not to trust those words. The ironic thing is that I crave those words because I never heard them from the people I cared the most. So, when people say they love me but in more than just a throwaway line, it melts my heart.
