concept for standrew gifted au
or more to be accurate, gifted!steven au (it’s still standrew even there’s no andrew) or what i am doing....but can’t stop thinking about this
steven lim has a little secret
when he’s around, there’s something in the air. don’t know how to explain it, to most people sending time with him often has a soothing or pleasing effect on them. don’t matter how they felt or what they through before. sometimes it feels as if soft tingling with delicate, feathery touch. as if the giddy moments, walking on the cloud that don’t wanna come down ever. sometimes it feels as if floating in warm water under the sun. when in those condition people can’t upset with him. or get depressed. it feels addicted to good drug, if there is good drug. it has influences like the one. people don’t know what is it. even can’t recognized it. they just know that there’s something about steven lim besides he’s such a sweet, charming guy. well, briefly described, he was gifted with strong personal magnetism. literally.
not his words by the way. steven agreed with that only partly, and the rest, he’d willingly like to correct that it felt like cursed.
it’s not like steven is a superhero or something. neither he can do something like witchcraft. he is not witch, his parents are definitely not. his entire family are not. at least as far as he knows, no. It’s just one of the traits that runs in his mom family for generation. it wasn’t always succeeded in every generation. his mom and grandma don’t have that ability. first time he heard the story, he was nothing but a innocent kid. and steven loves it, even he didn’t believe that fully, it sound like awesome fairy tale. until it is not.
without any warning, on he’s 13th birthday, suddenly he had a worst fever he has ever had. his family worried as hell, closed to calling ambulance. but day after he got rid of the fever as if nothing had ever happened. no harm done, so it just passed like that.
in the beginning, nobody knows about that. somehow it is immune to people who he had been known before the power is awaken in him. like his family, his best friend jen, school friends and neighbors. no one had a smallest doubt about that. steven is always cheerful and jolly. love to learning and challenging. he was not popular kids. but he’s good one. everyone know that. sweet as honey, honest and kind, quite but friendly one. he wasn’t afraid to talk and meet people. he was.
it slightly changed when he entered high school. yes, he was living in a small town, but somehow he met new people. they are, both students and teachers were really happy to see him. when he walked by, people turn and react appreciatively. call him up, talked to him sweetly. they seemed to quite enjoy being with him. not gonna lie, at first steven was really enjoying this. it was really fun that watching people around going to almost melt. he couldn’t help feeling a little bit smug. it’s not like he really has power over them but still, it feels like that.
strangely enough, he felt something too. when there was people who hard time with feeling, steven can make them happy by just existing. it makes him happy too but sometimes it was too much. for example, he got tired easily. he didn’t think much of it though. he had been very busy in recent months and had to spending energy to get along friends. maybe this is growing pains.(actually he start to growing taller and taller, finally out of puberty and starts thinking rationally) maybe this is normal for being popular in reality? but it was not getting better. as time passed, he was feel quite exhausted all the time as something took his energy. he starts to sleeps a lot that really a lot. sometimes he was so sleepy can barely drive so his friends had to take him. his parents worried, but theres nothing wrong with him physically.
at the same time, strong things had starting to happened. there was a teacher who taught science, mr. daimler (hahaha) he was average man, nothing special mid 30s at a guess, he’s mostly don’t give a shit to students. but steven loves science so usually had paying attention in class. but sometimes..frankly too often he feels intense stare from front. really, it was too intense. their eyes met always when steven raise his head accidentally. theres no threatening, nothing like criminal, though something off, it made steven uncomfortable, nervous. steven even thought that he was drunk (oh my god is he really drunk at 10am?) but no. his friends in same class didn’t think like that (what? are you drunk steven?)
one day steven fall asleep during class. when he wake up, don’t know what time is it. but it felt long hour, enough to finish school day. too quite to think people hanging around (why his friends don’t wake him up? seriously jen? why he’s still in the classroom. and why the teacher still in the classroom too? why he is staring me like that? like he…wants eating me alive?!) it makes him wanting to hide. okay. maybe it was little bit threatening. mr. daimler was sitting at his desk. his both hands on the desk, the knuckles of his clechecf fists almost gone white. like he held it back something. he couldn’t remember much about that what next happen. maybe his instinct wake up. he had almost jumping from his seat, pretending to call jen while running out of the classroom. he couldn’t looking behind because too scared. he thought he never forgot the expression on teacher. the moment it’s remind steven of a horror movie he saw, about zombies. and it was like, the cue. he can't help but notice the change around him.
when he go out with friends, some strangers who was passing by him stop walking and turn to searching him, even following him. as if someone had bewitched them. maybe he was paranoid after the classroom accident(he couldn’t talked to anyone. it was ridicules. it sounded like ridicules and it was not like that he was in real danger, right?) but not only him, his friends noticed that behavior. nobody thought seriously, teased him by calling him like ‘magnet for weirdo’, ‘the pied piper’. they just thought this things happened because of his soft looking. steven was not. that time, he had an idea but he can’t believe that. the story he was told from mom and nana, that was just story. like unicorn, like mermaid. right?
between his childhood friends, steven not really has a personal space. they are his closest friends. grew up together since he was little. they don’t mind to invade to each others bubble. people became more and more…handsy with him. touching his shoulder and hair constantly, petting him involuntary. most of them done without his consent. people apologized after realizing what they did, and added to say that makes them felt pleasant tingle. honestly it was freak him out. suddenly it isn’t fun anymore. in his senior year. steven had start to avoid people.
one day he went to party for celebrate their graduation. big party he had ever been to. and it was really going a balm. house rang with music and laughter. even steven who had been careful with people for a time, loosened. for what reason he was drunk. he was not exactly fan of alcohol, but he survived from high school. of course he deserve that. and things weren’t so bad, after all. he enjoyed the party among friends. it felt good let things flow. release the tension, let the guard down. and without any warning, suddenly a stranger approached him and catch his wrist. she looks like a girl possessed. steven just had frozen there. something came crowding into his mind. and he hates it immediately she tried to touch him more. felt weird, gross. he can’t stop it. thankfully there was his friends too. they stoped her. she looks as if woken from a dream, apologized immediately and wondered why she had done that. maybe she was drunk too. but when steven turned to left party, it stopped by some boy nearby. he banged him into wall, caged steven with his body, buried his nose in the steven’s neck. his friends had to repeat what they did before. and another same things happens. and another one. after this disaster all of them thought, okay this is fucking creepy. what the fuck steven? but steven couldn’t answer. the next thing he knows, he passed out in the middle of party. fuck.
finally he and his family realized how serious the situation. they talked about this, sought more information, investigated the cause with symptoms all the while.
it only activated in person
it’s not working with physical pain. (thank god)
it’s working on not only human. but animal, plant too. (okay this is cool.)
as he grows older, it will become stronger.
drunk state makes it too. (not cool)
there’s people who immune to his influence. there’s some levels though. rare to find.
- the closer to him, it feels stronger. longer to stay near him, it feels stronger.
touching him, beyond that. depends on the scale, it can get taking people high like on dope.
it is not some free gift. if he could influence on people, they could have the same opportunity. it was drained of his energy both mentally or physically. somehow it is remind steven of energy conservation. when give them positive energy, also they gave him the same amount of negative energy. like balance of yin and yang.
that’s why he was tired all the time. felt something invaded him. that’s why his hair color changed when he woke up from pass out and hangover. it’s gone to very lighter than before. almost light brown. huh. there’s more things but in short, it works as empathy regardless of his will. fuck.
so his college life, went to hell as expected. he tried to don’t mind the thing that he have (he don’t know how to call it. power? talent? mutantion? no, NO) it wasn’t easy as say that. he couldn’t ignore it as much as he wanted. campus was full of strangers. and he can’t lose control himself. he need to learning that how to control it. but again, it wasn’t easy as say that. it’s skip almost 5 generation. then suddenly popped into his life.
most of time steven acted carefully around people. protect his personal space. when he had letting the guard down unwittingly, people acting as if they are bunch of happy zombies. steven is the prey. obsessed being with him, as if they want to cuddle him like some kitten and never let him go.
when he was in really good chance, he found some immunes, or half immune. they thought it was funny though. (‘dude, are you oozing out some pheromone that only i can’t catch?’ ‘where’s your pipe, stevie?’ do you gonna take them to your own kingdom somewhere hidden? that’s not fair. we’re your friends but weren’t invited yet’ ‘stop’) or somehow, became protective of him. he can take care of himself thank you very much.
he didn’t go party, didn’t go bar, didn’t get drunk, didn’t date. actually he was asked out several times, turned down all though. too busy to deal with his own problem. didn’t even notice them. some people didn’t understand him. and god, it was really frustrated. because he can’t understand himself either.
it’s not like, he don’t hate his ‘things’. in a manner of speaking, he has a love/hate relationship with it. he really likes to help people. watching the sadness or something gone, happiness shined on them because of him, that moment he is happy too. especially with the people he cared about.
but it’s not like, they want to be with steven himself, right? the thing that is what people wants. not steven lim. what if, what if the thing is gone, people still want to be with him? still love him?
his family and friends told him don’t be an idiot, but sometimes he felt as an idiot. well, most of time. the worst part is, if he wants, he might using the things for benefit himself. he never did like that in purpose. never would. but the temptation, very few time he felt, made him feel like a freak. it feels so wrong. disgusted with himself, it made him lose of appetite for love.no matter how much he wanted, can’t trust himself. can’t trust people. although he loves them, no interest falling love with them. and this inner argument that he deals with, somehow makes him was introvert on the other hand, very sociable man at the same time.
god. why it is gonna be so long?
long story short after graduation,
buzzfeed, the bunch of immunes, praise them. more than half of them are immunes. and still wants to be his friends. it’s miracle. he thought that finally found his place. for a long time in his life he felt normal again.
by the time his hair gone nearly pure blond with soft rosy hue. (‘wow. you hair color is amazing. isn’t it hard to get like that?’ ‘it was.’ was it your idea?’ ‘i don’t want to.’) there was some accidents when he was still in college. still learning to how to control it, he really tried to coping with ‘the thing’. he can’t live like that forever after all. (just gave his free will up? no thanks) after some trials and errors. he could block others feeling and his own. not fully, but it is better than nothing. it was useless when it comes to drunk though. and how naive he was. only thought that he might take advantage of them. didn’t think take advantage of him ever. he wouldn’t repeat the same mistake again. so he keeps his secret himself besides jen who has been known that from beginning. and adam. the blissful immune, after steven revealed the secret accidentally, adam calmed him down and swore that he won’t speak a word to anybody about the part of him. they became best friends quickly. time passing. and you know,
enter andrew. the one who is not only a handsome immune, but somehow fascinated with him. it’s confusing steven. frustrating for andrew and adam too. (for both of them. the idiots.)
um. didn’t mean to go this far..
