https://archiveofourown.org/works/83864731/chapters/221074476
New fic online! This time it was a comment (which by the way was excellent with 4 wonderful ideas) and this is one of the ideas! Thanks to my Beta my writing is improving and, with my better health status and my latest tests showing that my brain has recovered more, I am able to write better and bigger paragraphs!
Talking to some friends, I finally decided to talk and tell a little about myself.
If you follow my old fics, in some of them in the notes I talked about a work accident, which gave me more time to write but it's just a part of the truth. The work accident was serious, I worked with heavy machinery, and because of the accident, I stayed in the hospital for months and underwent several surgeries, including two in the head.
I can't go into details, but the accident was serious (turned to news in my state newspaper) and I now have a hole in my head (which makes me little out of the house and, when I go out, I hide my head with hats, hats, hoods, scarfs and others because I haven't got used to the looks yet and once a small child saw me and started crying what left me in an even more depressing state at the time).
As part of the recovery, still in the hospital, I started writing every day and posting every day and today, with the help of my fiancé, friends, family and friends online, I am gradually gaining more confidence and leaving home more (simple things, a market here, cinema, go to a restaurant or bar), I am also with medical help that is helping me not to leave everything I feel inside me and finally created courage to be able to post this along with the link of my new fic.
I want to take advantage and also apologize. At the beginning of my recovery I couldn't write well, words come out wrong or meaningless so I used AI to be able to fix and then send to my Beta (who at the time was someone else I knew and who she put in English what I wrote in my native language after AI fixed the errors and maintained a certain logic in grammar).
Now that I am better and feeling more confident I have resolved to stop hiding, a few months here I am writing directly in English and sending to my Beta, which helps me with mistakes and helps me improve (we communicate via Skype).
I'm not looking for pity or trolls talking that I'm lying or guilts trips or anything else, I just decided to write that and post just before I lost my courage. Many DM's that I receive privately no longer affect me, I'm fine with myself, I have friends and family who really care about me.
I thank everyone who helped me, who listened to me and who helped me. I thank even the trolls and Hckers who tried again to delete my Tumblr and my AO3 account (my fiancé is the one who made the new passwords) because they helped me gain more courage and believe in me more.
I will continue to post my fics, I will continue to try to improve and take care of my health and to have more confidence in myself to try to get out on the street without having to cover myself or hide. Little steps now.
One day, I'll have the courage to re-post pictures of myself on my social media and never see my body as broken again. The online blog I have in my native language talking about everything I've been through since the accident also helps me (I won't give the link, it's a personal blog and I don't want people trying to find where I live/and neither do my images) and my social mideas are from a different email that I use on AO3 and here on Tumblr. One day, when I have courage and less shame of my body, I will make a post here, telling the whole truth, of my job, of the accident, of the justice to be able to move on, of those involved, printscreens of trolls/haters but I don't know when it will be. Gradually I will open up more but for now I will continue with my fics and focus on my health.
Anthat's it, excuse me for the long post, I'm posting it in all my social mideas
