♬ 8 (from Alice)
meme. accepting. ( bad voodoo. )
‘ my skull is filled up with terrible crimes. ’
it sounds like a confession, like bishop is admitting to sins from his past but that isn’t the case. he’s broken the law a few times in his life, but he’s never done anything worse than stealing a horse or getting into a fistfight. and yet, these images that flash through his mind, of him doing the most atrocious things-- he knows they’re real, but they don’t fit in with his life, with what he’s lived through.
he regrets bringing it up the moment he’s spoken, but it’s too late now. maybe he’s lucky and she’ll just assume that he used to be some coldblooded killer, trying to atone for the sins of his past now he has a daughter.
he can’t be sure he wasn’t anymore. could he have made himself forget, fooled himself into thinking he’s a half-decent man? the more he thinks about it, the worse he feels. he decides to stop thinking about it.