#erika talks

[moltenghost]

Hey tumblr this might be a bit of a stretch but I've been trying to find a hannigram fic I read ages (years?) ago but literally all I can remember is Will kills Freddie lounds by accident and stuffs her body in the foot well of his car. I'm pretty sure he's like visiting Hannibal in the hospital and he's worried someone will see her stuffed in there. Does anyone remember the name of this fic?

[kitty-pins-supremacy]

[The tv screen glitches, and a green leaf on a black background replaces it]

[ HELLO ]

AHHGAGH WHERED MY WOOFS GO!!???

uh. what the fuck.

MY TV????

[The three stare, Erika awkwardly fumbling to try plug it out.]

[artypjmlbss]

Hey lovelies!! ❤️

By this time I’m either on the airplane or in the airport already, but I just wanted to let you all know that I’ll be gone from Tumblr until sometime in June. Thank you to everyone who has been only kind and caring towards me. :) I love you all very much and I’m very sorry that I have to leave so suddenly, but you know how life is. I hope to be back soon! 🥰💗

-Erika 🧸💕

[ajokeformur-ray]

The older I get, the more I enjoy and appreciate my own company. Being friends with myself used to be such an unusual concept but now it’s as natural to me as breathing. I have dates with myself where (at least pre-quarantine) I would take myself out to the cinema and then to dinner. With quarantine going on, I can only have film nights with myself, but I get dressed up and have some snacks, too.

I used to hate myself so much that I would feel physical nausea if I even looked in the mirror and though I do still have those days, for the most part I at least like myself. Some days I hate myself. Some days... some days, I love myself. 

But for the most part, I like myself. I accept who I am and I like it (though of course it is my duty as a human being to keep on growing and learning and changing, and that’s good). I am so grateful to be who I am and though my journey of self-love and self-acceptance isn’t complete, I’m in a much better place today than I was even yesterday or the day before. 

We constantly change and evolve and there’s something really poetic and beautiful in that.🥺

[alwaysunnyonmtv]

If Torchwood took place in 2019 you know they wouldn’t be able to keep themselves secret because people would be throwing pics of them running around Cardiff on Instagram left and right, and talking about alien sightings on Twitter faster than the team could keep up with.

[hetalia-positivity]

I'm kind of embarassed to ask but I just went through a breakup and I don't believe I'm capable of being loved anymore so could I please get some positivity with my fav mr Japan :(

Of course, honey. It will be posted tomorrow. And if you want to talk about it, feel free to dm me ❤️

[erikalovesss]

Writing Discoveries

so let’s talk about little 11-16 year old me. I went back in my old email right? my old old one named lollystalk or whatever. and looked back at all my old writing that i use to send myself from my email.

like i was old school as hell cause i’m looking at my email and i use to have full on conversations with people via email. (like that was so cute. what happened to that. waiting in anticipation for an email response. can we bring that cuteness back?!) and i found old writing. old text messages. old notes. old KIK things. ah!

made me think about old school crushes. the stupid shit i use to say when i was a little teen thing. it’s so embarrassing but it’s like damn.... memories ya know? i was embarrassing i can’t lie. like if the old uterika was my little sister i would have been so embarrassed. but cause i know it’s me it’s like... doubled. ah.

anyways my writing. lmao some of it was absolute trash. but it makes me remember just how long i’ve been doing it. and mind you i got a laptop at 11. so now i can’t help but think of all the writing i use to WRITTEN.

like i use to love to make stories. and they’re embarrassing... and silly... and high school (or what i thought highschool was) ... and some of them are even problematic but it was MINE you know?

& that... just. nothing has made me smile and want to never stop writing more than that. And I got back into it but all I could think was hey! You’re not good. Or you can do better. Or there’s so many people doing better. I look at tv shows I love and books and other people’s writing and i’m like.... you SUCK. But then I remembered how long I use to write and I’m like ... no bro.

You’re getting better. You’re strengthening your skill. You’re doing that thing your heart LIVES to do. I literally say this all the time... but my head ... works in prose. I can’t experience anything without distantly thinking of it dialogue and descriptive figurative writing. I was made to write. And that’s kinda fucking awesome to me.

Anyways might post some really cringy old writing on my writerblr who knows. 😭

[traveller-lover-dreamer]

Hey guys...

I haven’t been active on here in ages. Truth is, I wasn’t planning on coming back on here at some point. Here I am though.. 

I apologize for not having been active in the last few months. I have been struggling with severe depression for almost two years and earlier this year I attempted suicide. I stopped coming on here because I had to concentrate on getting better, which was a long process but now I do am feeling a lot better.

Lately, I’ve been missing writing and being on here and I’ve decided to try to write again. Unfortunately for those of you who were waiting on the next chapters of Daughter of the Sea, I have decided to turn that fanfiction into a book and I have decided to stop updating the story on here because it doesn’t fit the fanfiction genre anymore.

As for A Web of Minds, I haven’t decided yet if I should continue writing it. Thing is, I was so severely depressed when I was writing it that I think it would be better to leave it in the past and to concentrate on a new story. I do have a new fanfic idea in mind and I’d like to know if any of you would like to know about it.

Sorry for the long ass post and I hope you’ve read it all cause I really need your opinion hahaha

Peace out guys!