#erin complaining

[cassyblue]

today in things my classmates say: “I think that millenials wouldn’t be so depressed and anxious if they had art education because it’d help them express their emotions.”

Me, a depressed and anxious millennial who had art education:  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ If art could make my brain function then I wouldn’t have to be on meds to function and I definitely wouldn’t have had anxiety since 5th grade. 

[cassyblue]

It's after midnight and I'm crying about how I've been mean to my thesis bugs bc of my nonfunctioning days this week. I'm just really upset and I'm hoping their ok but they probably aren't :(

[cassyblue]

Things I would rather do then go to a group dinner with workshop participants:

- Go to a two hour belly dance show

-Go to a two hour belly dance show

-Go to a two hour belly dance show

San Francisco & the Bay Area have a big belly dance scene since the 1970s. You betcha I’m not going to pass up a chance see maybe see Fatchance Belly Dance if I have to miss Zoe Jakes & Beats Antique bc of this workshop

[cassyblue]

my job interview is in an hour

i have the sense of impending doom

i swear if i cry at the where do you see yourself in five years question like i did when practicing i will rage quit everything

[benevolent-atrophy]

Had to drink my espresso in one gulp, biked partway to work before realizing I forgot my ID badge, fell over and unknowingly knocked my chain loose, hurriedly biked home wondering wtf was up with my bike, got my ID badge, at the end of my street my chain came out so I had to fiddle with it for a minute, hurriedly bike to work and make it on time by some miracle, can't wash off the grease from my hands, then have trouble breathing so I take my inhaler, and between the fast breathing from biking as fast as I can, the albuterol, and the caffiene, I am a shaking mess (I even fell over once) My night at work has only started, and I woke up at like 7 in the morning to boot.

[memelord420blazeit]

I don't even know I'm so emotional right now ugh. I always feel alone and if I post about it it makes me feel guilty because what if I'm pressuring people or annoying them because this is only way I can express my feelings and then my rosacea acts up and I get all red faced and ah