#erin types

[sirenssingg]

Sorry for anyone who has been worried about me (personally or just looking at the things I've been posting lately). I've been going through a hell of a time mentally and emotionally. Had to give all my medicine to someone else to give me and I've already relapsed a few times. Not to mention my plain rejection of talking to anyone. I'm sorry. I'm really trying.. sort of. No one is going to really be with my on the anniversary, and I'm just... not okay.

[chaoticarchfey]

Name change

So, I’m gonna start going by a different name. A gender neutral one, I’ve... Finally found one I like.

Wren.

I know it’s gonna take a lot of getting used to. And it’ll probably take me a while to get used to too, lmao. And to remember to tag “wren types” instead of “erin types”. But yeah, new name, I am officially a tiny bird.

[chaoticarchfey]

If I started going by a different, more gender neutral name on here, how many of you would use it for me?

[chaoticarchfey]

On a completely different note I just rewatched Dr Horrible because of my inability to sleep and I have a mighty need to cosplay Captain Hammer.

[chaoticarchfey]

So not only is my PCOS playing up a little but my Osgood-Schlatter has made an unexpected reappearance?? Never mind how weird it is that I have the damn thing in the first place but it had been fine for ages, and now over the last couple of days my knee is aching so much I can't sleep, general movement is difficult... And since it's been over a year since it last played up (so I thought I'd grown out of it, as my doc said I would) I've forgotten the little things that help it Agaksjajaaga how did I even get something that's usually found in athletic, sporty, active teenage boys when I'm a couch-potato DFAB agender person. Hmph.

[chaoticarchfey]

derinthemadscientist and I arguing over the pronunciation of “excellent”

[chaoticarchfey]

A note to those I know irl

Sometimes I will mention my PCOS. Sometimes I’ll say that it’s “playing up” and have a bit of a moan, as anyone with pain does.

But please remember that when I vocalise this? isn’t the only time the pain is there. The pain is there constantly. It’s just when I talk about it, it’s worse than usual.

Just cause I’m not saying that I’m in pain does not mean that it’s all okay, PCOS is a chronic illness, it’s always gonna be there, I can generally deal with it for the most part (...still working on it, it’s still relatively new to me) but I’m in quite a lot of pain, all the time, at least. Think how it would feel if someone clamped your ovaries tightly in a vice and then shoved a red hot skewer through them, whilst they’re also cramping up. Think that, 24/7.

Just... Please be aware of this guys, okay?

[chaoticarchfey]

It's like that bit in Alien with the chestburster, except it's voluntary and from your bits.

My friend James on childbirth