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How to not react at someone who traumatized you

#sunnie thoughts #mama trauma #estranged parent #i cant rip the band aid and full block for fear of total loss of contact with my younger sibling #but depending on the response to this i may have to full NC #gonna shower and either chrck it later or never-notifs for her are turned off so i should be safe #she really asked me if i was ghosting her then tells me my sister needs glasses then tries to have me join whatsapp like NAH

Hey what the fuck is up with estranged parents sending the weirdest out of context shit to the kids they didn't even raise, acting like the kid needs to "come back home" and the parents "did so much for the kids and never stopped loving them" and why are both of my parents this kind of person

#sunnie thoughts #my mother sends me the jesus videos and my father just sent me an AI americas got talent video #mama trauma #estranged parent #estranged parents

My affirmations app:

"I can always go home to my family to center back to myself"

Uninstalled

#sunnie thoughts #mama trauma #estranged parent #estranged parents #and then when i opened the app to see if i could like hide that specific affirmation-the option to close the premium sale bs didnt work at #I am is the app if youre wondering lol #my therapist recomended i try aomwthing like that last year or so and it “worked” but theyve been major bullshit lately lolol

Disgusting. Just wrote down a phone number and saw my mother's handwriting leaving my hand.

#sunnie thoughts #sunnie vents #mama trauma #estranged parent #learning to forge your signature for school because you wouldnt sign anything for me shockingly stuck with me and I hate it #at least my cursive is different than yours

Idr if I ever updated on the weirdness that is mfm [my fucking mother] but she had sent me two news articles like a day or so after she hit me with the "that sucks" when expressing driving is a touchy subject for me (since she nor the guardians she passed me to took it upon themselves to teach me as a child) and i didn't open the message from her for like 4/5 days, anyway I opened it today and it's fucking politics???

When I've told her how I feel about it and that idgaf about trump or anything he does????

I was already planning to sign out of messenger and block her number for the holiday but i might just block all her accounts at this rate LOL

#sunnie thoughts #mama trauma #estranged parent

Chapter 8 of "Adult Children of Emotionally Immature Parents" came at a really great time (all timing is truly divine) and it's really better helping me to not only understand my mother, but her responses and means of communicating in general.

#sunnie thoughts #inner healing #mama trauma #estranged parent #adult children of emotionally immature parents

Hey guys Im struggling so I'm gonna collect my thoughts and feelings with this read more! Feel free to read or scroll, whatever works best for you 💖

HOO okay that shit with my mom yesterday? Infuckingsane. Imagine leaving your kid in the legal guardianship of the kids best friends mom, never checking back in to see how your kid is doing, only passively via a TEXT to said kid. Mind you they left me 1500 miles away while they took their new baby to raise with HIS family. Oh mind you the whole reason they had to leave was because they were a year behind in rent and didn't make any effort to put money towards that, only to buy physical things for themselves. Before they left they went out of their way to make sure they had a Christmas FULL of gifts but NOTHING FOR ME!!! I had to buy my own food with child support money, I had to figure out how to pay activity fees (what they make you pay to join a sport or activity in American high school) without a job, and when I BEGGED to be put in drivers ed? I was told no. Because they "couldn't afford it."

So for my mother to have the AUDACITY to send me a picture of some strangers dashboard with fucking pokemon plushies in it, then say "I can see you and your sister doing this with your cars"???? I tried to be fucking civil and say "maybe!" And SHE JUST HAD TO FUCKING ASK WHY NOT. oh mind you immediately after that she sends me another unrelated sign about shoplifting that she saw recently. (Which was probably a jab at me, based on a memory I have where I wanted something at walmart, her partner said no, so she told me to "just take it" because her partner "accidentally" stole something from Walmart the week prior. Of course I got caught by a secret shopper. I left evidence. I was a child. I told the shopper my mom told me to and she lied. Not even for me. She lied and said she didn't tell me to steal it.)

The fact that I can literally take 3 hours to remove my own emotional charge, before replying to her saying "Driving is a touchy subject for me. Between 3 adults whose responsibility was to take care of me, not one of them found it necessary to teach me how to drive."

And she just hits me with "that sucks" like she didn't leave me after "raising me" for 16 years.

She takes such pride in perpetuating her generational cycle (not really but thats how it feels) She didn't get taught to drive so why should she teach her daughter? My sister isn't old enough for drivers ed yet so idek if she'll bother with her.

Sometimes I wish my mom did hard drugs. At least then I'd have something to explain this behavior. But no. She's sober. Always has been. She's just like this. Like I get that trauma explains her behavior. But holy fucking shit I wish she at least fucking liked me A LITTLE BIT. Idek why she bothers talking to me (eh probably because she used me as emotional support in youth and is grappling at strings when she's struggling)

What really has me fucked up today is this is just my surface level of issues. I haven't even touched on how I am yet again wearing my hair in a hat just for some semblance of peace and not hearing snide comments from small towners. How every time someone has done that weird midwest thing where they say "how's it going" after you say "hello" I've been telling them Im bad. Because why lie? You asked. I'm not good today. Haven't been for a minute.

My brain does this thing where she wants to go back to escapism when I feel like this, and I am once again wanting to do dxm/drugs. I want so badly to give in just for a night but I've also been doing so well at not touching it.

Im so angry. Im so sad. Im so tired.

Lol I had to pause from this to help a customer who hit me with the "sorry to bother you" like omfg bitch you asked me if im doing better today and I said no. Then you tried to force small talk by asking me if I use the rewards program of the store we're both at??? Like please i don't do personal questions in the workplace. And bitch it's not you that's a bother but if you say that shit to me again im gonna tell you "my mother fucking hates me, doesn't even like me. Nothing you have done. But there ya go

ohhHHHHHH OMG some guy tried to trauma dump on me about his job next door so I just ficking said "my mom hates me." He kept trying to talk about himself and I said "she left mebwhen I was 16 and still thinks she can talk to me" like bro idgaf about you or your employees FUCK OFF

#sunnie thoughts #sunnie vents #mama trauma #estranged parent #estranged mother

My mother made the mistake today of asking me "why not" when I replied "maybe!" to her out of the blue message saying "I could see you and your sister doing this with your cars"

Shout out to continued growth because today I didn't choose peace and spoke mine instead, told her

"Driving is a touchy subject for me. Between 3 adults whose responsibility was to take care of me, not one of them found it necessary to teach me how to drive."

CHEW ON THAT SHIT BITCH. Between you and the two legal guardians you were SUPPOSED TO KEEP IN CONTACT WITH not a one decided to actually be a parent to me!!! So fuck you and fuck off, you dont get to talk to me about driving related shit when you cant even be bothered to look inward at how dirty you did me as a child.

#tw mama trauma #mama trauma #sunnie thoughts #estranged parent #i blocked her from seeing everything i can post how the FUCK does she still manage to get under my skin like this