#euphoria vn

[maggotfeed]

something is seriously wrong w my dating sim

[princesssuya]

Euphoria ( visual novel) || free to use ofc

Kanae Hokari sprite pngs ::

The vn is one of my special interests :’D !

[rainbowvanilla11037]

link is for the app icons!

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[l0tus-3at3r]

I think glasses would suit kanae

[gifberd]

бля докатилась (nsfw ⬇️⬇️⬇️⬇️)

[asukahokari]

My babies

[gu6chan]

Keisuke: boy that underground facility was awful, i sure am excited to get back to my normal life

The Nefarious Nemu:

[tinylittlemeowmeow]

Sometimes I wish I had people I could be honest with about my interest in eroguro without being lumped in with lolicons and rape fetishists. I really like Song of Saya as well as euphoria and Nei No Hakoniwa, despite my many, many, issues with both, have some interesting themes and ideas. But since they both have lolicon and rape fetish elements I can't fucking talk about them with anyone in earnest that isn't either reading them for fetish or shock value.

It's so frustrating that the genre that has themes I genuinely want to explore in realistic ways is all just fetish work. I'm desperate for stories like these to be told in a way that isn't fetishistic, and I study them so that if I make my own I can avoid the same pitfalls. I get that eroguro is a hentai genre so it's a dead dove do not eat situation, but like where else can I find dark romance with extreme body horror elements. Like it simultaneously scratches an itch of the exact thing I want while being exactly what I don't want.

Especially since I think the porn elements actually take away a lot of what the story is trying to tell in most cases. Keisuke's struggle with his own sadistic urges in euphoria honestly would have been more engaging if the scenes were less pornified. If there wasn't a fucking counter to when the cumshot was. If the h-scenes weren't as long and never ending. Like genuinely there were times where I was groaning in frustration as another h-scene popped up because I was like "Jesus Christ! Just get on with the story!" That frustration also made its true ending hit less for me. Even though it was genuinely beautiful and tragic, I was mentally exhausted and ready for it to be over.

It was the same way with Maggot Baits. I will admit the balance between plot and story was better and it felt like less of a slog compared to euphoria, but I also was getting tired of the constant barrage of h-scenes. I never felt like I really got to know any of these characters, so I never really got attached to any. The themes actually felt a lot shallower with Maggot Baits as well. I love dissecting Christianity and its flaws, as well as themes about what it is to be human and have purpose, but the story itself felt half baked in a way because I felt like not enough time was given to the plot. It's there, it can be dissected, but it's not meaty enough to actually hold my interest.

Nei No Hakoniwa has really interesting themes about how power corrupts even the purest intentions as well as misogyny and the societal expectations of women, but then the second half basically throws it away with the barrage of rape sequences that yes, have to do with the box, but I feel like there was a better way to go about doing it. It felt like it was throwing away the themes that it was setting up throughout the first half to just become slop and that enrages me. At least euphoria and maggot baits had the decency to tie the slop to its themes to a degree.

Saya no Uta is probably the closest to what I want more of, but even it has fetishized rape scenes. I genuinely wish I could recommend even the censored to more people, but since Saya is lolibait, it understandably makes people not want to read it. It's unfortunate. I think the story is very beautiful but it's held back by the fact that it pornifies things.

Call me silly or a tourist all you want, but I myself am a incest and rape victim. I want stories that can bring me some catharsis and understandings of my own trauma. But nobody cares about those things. Everyone just wants to fetishize my suffering, my existence.

Like why can't I have stories about grappling with the taboo and madness and toxic love that are raw and intense without it just being smut? Why can't I have a safe place to explore my trauma without making it myself? Why can't people actually make realistic representation of incest, rape, and pedophilia without fetishizing it? Why can't people actually care about victims?

It's not fair... Reading these vns are almost a form of psychological self harm for me. I'm desperate for an outlet for my pain. For someone, anyone, to understand what I've been through and let it out in a form that is cathartic and grotesque, but all I get is even more pain as I'm reminded of a world that pretends to care, but really doesn't. It's not fair...