I’m so incredibly frustrated at myself for repeatedly denying my feelings related to being Otherkin. Because now, my source material (the original Pokemon anime) has ended. If I’d discovered my kintype sooner, I wonder if I would have found my canonmates by now.
Obviously I don’t want to rush anything. But I miss them so badly. I want to talk to them all again, hear how their lives in this existence have been going. I hope they’re happy.
I miss Cilan a lot. Putting aside the fact we were dating in my canon, he was my absolute closest friend, my BEST friend AND my partner. We were as close as two people can get. I told him everything and he told me everything. I developed a close friendship with Cilan’s Pokemon, Cilan’s brothers, Chili’s Pansear, and Cress’s Panpour too.
It’s a lot of people to miss at once. It feels like my entire life ripped out from under me. Which it kind of was. I’m adjusted to this life, I’m happy, but that doesn’t stop me from wanting to reconnect with everyone I once knew. I want to know what makes them happy in this life, what their interests are, and more importantly - make sure that they’re happy.
I think the chances of me finding them again are slim. Particularly since the Pokemon Black & White anime really doesn’t get new eyes on it anymore. But regardless, I refuse to give up hope. If anything, the thought of possibly finding them again keeps me motivated enough to stay on social media (I’m normally not much of a social media person)
They never gave up on me, even when it was hard. I won’t give up on them. Someday, maybe not in the next year, or two years or three years, but someday I will find them again. Cilan, Axew, Emolga, Excadrill, Dragonite, Gible, Cress, Chili, Pansage, Pansear, Panpour, Ash, Shannon, Dawn, Georgia, Burgundy, Bianca:
No matter what happens - I’ll stay right here. I’ll be waiting for as long as it takes.
- Iris (Pokemon B&W anime)
