#eve's notes

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the interaction between the doctor & the player in the next chapter be like :

but for real, i can't stop thinking about this lmao.

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each time, when i write harley monologuing about how great he is and how he did the impossible, which to his credit is true, i catch myself thinking that him pulling someone like angel is still more unimaginable, than the whole ‘alive toys’ business. i mean, harl, did you hear yourself, did you see yourself? you old horrible man. so insufferable, that literally no one at your work place, that is full of other assholes, could stand you. yet, ‘mr. perfect’ over there saw you and thought i’d tap that. seriously, that’s practically a superpower. 

i’m jeering, of course. i do adore harley’s type of characters the most and i aesthetically love awful, old men in fiction. peak hot stuff, right there. they are so terrible, that i need them to be loved and to yearn like a crazy evil person they are. but objectively, it’s always some guy who is waaaay, waaay too good for them, who has a rather deep damage himself, which makes this whole thing click so well. two wrongs don’t make a right, but a wrong and rightful wrong can make something rather compelling. 

either way, i’m merely blaberring, since finishing writing the next chapter for DexM made me think about how it all will evolve further down the line. and how it’s ironically changes a lot for harley, but doesn’t really change harley himself. well, not in a way, that changes his nature, at least.

and this in return, made me track back to that idea that i had awhile back about harley and angel meeting during the young geniuses program. and how the only thing, that would have been different is that technically, they would have had a happily ever after, since harley would have declined an offer to work at playtime co, but he still would have sucked so bad in this, haha. calling dibs on angel from the get-go and pretty much making sure, that he won’t go anywhere (not that angel would have tried, really) and won't ever get super close with anyone else (also not like angel would have done it, anyways). all while elliot is horrified by how he kinda made all of this happen, since harley needed a friend and elliot picked him one, and harl never let go of said 'friend' ever again lol.

but really, in my version of characters, no matter the universe / set up, elliot outlook on securityangel will always be that 'i concent, i don't' meme. like, it's more complex than this, of course, but in nutshell, and simplied ... yeah, it's this. exactly. that's why harley ends up killing you each timeline, elliot. and you just never learn.

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with all the talks about a poppy playtime movie ... i sure hope, that if we will have a glimpse at harley, they'd find someone like this to play him. an older man, who isn't objectively handsome, but quite striking.

kinda funny, how the second i saw this gentelman on screen, i was like ohh, he would have made such a cool dr. sawyer. hence, this specific movie is nothing short of antient, and this good fella right here was dead for years, i magine, but oh well.

i suppose, they can find someone like lain glen too. just truly hope, that if harl would get an actual cameo as non-robot, it's be in visage of someone who can pull off that specific cunty, yet intelligent look.

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somehow, when i write human!harley it feels way more like i'm writing some sort of creature vs when i write robo!harley, who is a creature.

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one of angel's death scenes should have been him calling sawyer a harlot instead of harley. no neck would have been ever crushed so fast, i imagine.

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as someone, who has a lot of social paranoia, it’s rather rewarding to write characters like sawyer. someone, who is also very wary of people and expects the worst from them, but in a completely different way and looks at it from a different angle as well. 

i really enjoy how unforgiving harley is toward those, who hurt him (elliot). it doesn’t mean much to him, that the intention behind said hurt was good. i really love a character, whose pain grows teeth of its own, esp if said character was already a ‘bad apple’ to begin with. to make an enemy of such a person is just bound to end up in a murder. 

in comparison, angel’s hurts are more melancholic. he doesn’t really reflect on it. not in a way, that most people would do, but it does make things harder for him. it’s like dragging a chain, that is bound to you and you don’t know how to get rid of it, so you just make peace with it and try to ignore its weight, since with time, it becomes kinda a part of you. the guilt makes it impossible to even entertain the idea, that you didn’t deserve it. 

gotta wonder what angel and harley will do for one another in that sense. i have an outline for each story, but it also can change or get murky. they are on opposite sides of the mental issues spectrum almost. yet, they complete each other. such sad and scary men. and i sometimes can’t even fully tell which one of them is which.