Watched Noriko‘s Dinner Table like a week ago and it spoke to me. Like I was sick watching it. My head felt like it was going to explode. I cried tears into my noodles. When Noriko wrote to Kumiko trying to explain what she was feeling. Stared at what she wrote and felt it sounded like any person. She couldn‘t even recognise herself in her own struggle. That‘s literally how I feel trying to talk to people on the internet. Like what am I even talking about. Ever. I hate having to piece together an identity. That I have to be someone. That everything sounds like something I know a million people have thought to themselves in the very same hour. I hate feeling like I have to be one composed rigid person. I cant figure out who that would be. But I also cannot be someone else every day like Noriko. I just want to let go and in the last few moments of my life I‘ll know who I am. It‘s okay if I‘ll be wandering around in the meantime. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
