August 20, 2017
mom took away my phone while I was sleeping
I can’t find it anywhere when I call it
She’s still insisting on having passport copies of everyone I plan on meeting in Cleveland or “I’m not allowed to go”
She’s not letting me get the new perscription of medication because it’s a high dose that she’s not comfortable with even though my depression feels like it’s spiralling out of control
She insists that all my symptoms (inability to concentrate, sleepiness, lack of energy, lack of motivation) are all self inflicted
she yelled at me for ten minutes this morning when I couldn’t get out of bed in time for church
then another twenty when she returned
She says my friends are godless and will force me to have sex and do drugs if I go and meet up with them
“nobody will love you the way we do so give up on your friends, why don’t you go with people from church”
the same people from church make me feel unsafe with quips about “Did you just assume my gender” and “don’t self diagnose haha” when I tried to tell them about my mental illnesses
I’m finally able to recognize abusive arguments but this still sucks
