#exconservative

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Hello. I am new. Let me explain myself.

I am a former hardcore conservative. I used to be as far right as they come. I am a white, part mexican, plus-sized, non-religious, bisexual, (admittedly abit more straight leaning) female in a straight relationship who is currently changing their views. I grew up with a very white life, and living a very white experience, being treated and seen as completely white, despite being part Mexican. I never learned much about Mexican culture, and I want to. I want to hear more stories and experiences, and am trying to make up for any hurt or pain I've caused with my past beliefs. I'm open to talking about anything with anyone.

I am aware, nobody has to accept my apologies or explanations for anything, I just want to talk and get a better undertsanding of things.

And nobody has to teach me anything either, I've got to learn things on my own.

Pronouns are she/her/hers. I don't think I'd be upset if you called me they/them/theirs though. So, do so if you like I suppose. I'm pretty feminine and a bit masculine in personality, and at times, styles.

I don't really deserve your time or attention but I thank you for reading.

[laowai-wife-blog]

Sometimes I wonder why I wasn’t more honest with myself and willing to explore both my own thoughts/feelings as well as other ideologies in college, but then I remember that: 

1) I went to a university that very much tried to shut down professors and students who didn’t stick with their conservative ideals. Professors were asked to resign for supporting LGBTQ+ students, and they practiced (and might still practice) mandatory conversion therapy for those students.

2) My closest friends were also extremely conservative and closed minded. Once when I was broken up with I called my friend in tears, trying to express how upset I was, and told her that I had slept with him and so felt betrayed and guilty. All she had to say was “I feel sorry for you,” like I was now ‘ruined’.

So yeah thank god I moved out of the country and met people from all different walks of life who made me feel comfortable with the exploration of so many things.

[princesscolumbia]

...I just had a thought that I never registered the entire time I was part of the conservative side of the political spectrum and in the alt-right pipeline. If I'd managed this thought, I might have exited the pipeline years before I wound up doing so for my own safety, so I'm sharing it here:

If the wealth-class are the people who 'create jobs,' then why is it they're always the ones we can trace back the cuts to jobs to? If they're so busy pruning jobs that, supposedly, the businesses they run don't need...where are these jobs coming from in the first place?

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Going to spend my days off with my Angel. If anyone were to ask me why I call him that, i've got a million reasons.

One of the biggest ones is that he helped me to question my past conservative views, and he never judged.

I know that even when I was a Trump loving conservative, (I'm sorry,) there was a part of me that always felt terrible and wondered if I was hurting anyone with my views.

The answer is yes, and he helped me finally accept that. Truth is he didn't do much, all he did was make me bring my concerns up, and made me evaluate them. From there, and from talking to him more, I ended up changing my mind.

There's simply no way you can be conservative, and support minorities. Not when conservatives and the Republican party only support and fight for Straight, White, Christian men. Ofcourse, they will never tell you that. They'll bring out some people of color and try to pose themself as progressive. They may even bring out members of the lgbtq+ community and try to pose themself as progressive, too. Don't be fooled. They don't care. They use the oppressed to get votes, and will gladly trample on them when they've gotten the votes they wanted.

If you know a conservative, I want to tell you that there is a chance that they will wake up.

They just have to have some doubt, some inkling that something is wrong.

To anyone reading, take good care, be safe, and love yourself. <3

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When White Relatives Turn Fascist

Realizing that everything you were taught growing up was a lie, and at the same time being hit with the reality that your relatives can be good, and kind, and loving toward you---and then turn around and in effect wish death on others---it's the sort of shock you don't quickly get over. Or at least I haven't. I feel like I've been living this shock every day, in progressive, worsening stages, for over a decade now.

“Maybe it’s because I was taught that we, as political conservatives, believed in liberty and freedom and small government and all these other things that the current conservative alignment with totalitarian police forces are putting a lie to. Maybe it’s because I didn’t see the lie, then. I believed the idealism. I thought it was real. I believed with all my heart in something I now see to be a blatant, abject lie. How does one make sense of that?”