Skill bbased therapy
I tthink that's what needed right now, not just some "oh you have unresolved trauma" but help getting out of the rut and doing the things I want to do.
Yes, the autistic burnout, the rsd, the paralyzing fear (or whatever you call it), that's all a cause of the inaction, but now, right now, I need to act, to move, to do the ten extremely important tasks to save my loved ones lives, and I can only stare at the wall, drowning in a circle of thoughts and worries.
When I turn tasks into routines they are easy, automatic, needing no thought or agenda, and things get done.
But these ten tasks, projects really, are fucking awful difficult scary, and require doing the same thing day after day after day and that just doesn't happen with me, notwithstanding what I just wrote before.
I got to protect two children. That's all that matters.