A/N: I was going to post this later on in the week, but it was a request and I very much enjoyed fulfilling this request. It is based on the song, Moonlight, of course (which is one of my favorite songs). I hope you all enjoy, especially the anon who requested it, thank you, I hope I did you right.
I love you.
“깊어진 하루 틈 사이 너는 조용히 다가와,
어둠을 걷어내고 나의 잠을 깨워,
그리곤 멀어져 열린 창문 저 너머로.”
You approach me quietly as the night falls.
Removing the darkness to wake me from my sleep,
and leaving me through the open window.
Tap. Tap. Tap.
No movement.
Tap. Tap. Tap.
This was starting to occur less and less often.
Tap. Tap. Tap.
This time, Sehun’s mind flicked on and his eyes fluttered open at the noise that had become all to familiar for this boy.
To inform you that he was awake and aware, he turned over in his bed and faced the window that you were tapping on, staring expectantly.
Sehun always left his window unlocked for you, but you still knocked. Sehun always told you to just come in and not bother with such gesture, but you still knocked. You didn’t want to come in uninvited, unwanted.
You would both dread the day where you were no longer wanted in that bedroom.
As Sehun watched, you silently coaxed his window open while making sure you remained steady on the fire escape.
He once told you that you entered with the grace of an angel, and while you refused to acknowledge such an unworldly comparison, he never stopped thinking as much.
“If not an angel,” he explained once, “a bird.”
You weren't sure about that one either, but at least this time you could pinpoint a reaction and laugh at such a comment.
You made your way over to Sehun’s bed and sat on the edge instead of letting your body be pulled into Sehun’s own like usual, even going as far as shifting away from Sehun’s usually welcoming (but now reluctant) hand that reached and ached to touch your own.
“닿을 수가 없는,
안길 수도 없는 곳,
수면 위에 비친 건 그 사람이 아니야,
이뤄질 수 없는 슬픈 너의 story,
가까워질수록 더 아파질 테니.”
A place that cannot be touched,
a place that cannot be held,
the reflection on the surface is not her,
it’s my sad story that cannot be fulfilled,
the closer I get the stronger the pain will get.
“Is he up there with you?”
At first, you wanted to ignore Sehun’s question, too afraid of the reaction you may receive for making the same decision that was seen as a mistake in your best friend’s eyes time after time.
“He’s not good for you, Y/N. Look at you! You haven’t been the same since you got back together with him.”
You were silent.
“Why do you stay with him?”
You were silent.
“Why-”
“Because I love him, Sehun,” you confessed, “it’s easier to just stay with someone you love.”
“The easy thing isn’t always the best thing.”
That’s not really what Sehun wanted to say. What he really wanted to ask you was ‘but what if you can’t even be with the one you love, what if they don’t even want you to stay?’ but Sehun didn’t want to seem selfish and refused to ask a question for his own benefit, a question that was plaguing his own mind and sparking his own curiosity. These nights were always about you, what you needed. Truly, for Sehun, every hour was about you and what you needed.
“If you don’t want me to be here, I’ll leave. I should’ve stopped visiting you a long time ago.”
“But doesn’t this tell you that he’s a bad idea? He’s the one driving you down to me, without him you wouldn’t have to feel guilty about me, you wouldn’t have to hide me.”
“I don’t hide you, Sehun, you’ve met him multiple times.”
“I’ve met him only as the man who lives below you.”
You were silent.
“Please, stay with me,” he reached for your arm again, “don’t leave. Just stay until the morning and you can leave before the sun rises like usual.”
You let his touch linger on your body for three seconds before yanking the privilege away from him. You had to do this fast or you never would.
“잠시만 나의 곁에서,
내려놓고 쉬어가도 돼.
먼동이 트면 저 달이 저무는
그 곳을 따라 그땐 날아가, yeah.”
Rest by me,
you can come.
When dawn comes you can
fly toward the moon, yeah.
“I’m leaving.”
No ‘Sehun’ on the end, no ‘I love you’, nothing.
It was a shitty goodbye on both ends.
“He’s holding you back, Y/N!”
You whipped around to face him from where you were standing, perfectly between his bed and the window.
“Holding me back from what, Sehun? You?”
“You’re going to get hurt, you already have.” He ignored your question.
“What if you’re the one hurting me, Sehun? What if you’re the one holding me back from true love?”
“I’m not forcing you to come to me, my love.”
You were silent.
Your shaky arms pulled his window open and your even shakier legs took you out onto the fire escape nobody had expected you to leave on so early on in the night. At this time, you wished you actually did have wings, so you could fly high into the sky where no one could see your tears or your uncertain movements, you wished you were the angel Sehun thought you were.
While you wiped the salty water away from your eyes with your uncovered arms, Sehun let his own fall directly from his soft face onto the empty bedsheets underneath him, the bedsheets that you would usually be seen snuggled underneath in at this time of night.
“Y/N-”
You slammed the window shut.
“이렇게 내가 널 애타게 불러- 멀어지지 마, babe, 그 날개가 젖으니.
그 날개가 젖으니.”
I call out to you like this- don’t go far, babe, your wing will get wet.
