02/28/2026
"Most of us understand that your future is not promised to you. It is constructed day by day, through the choices you make. Your future is earned, little by little, through hard work and action. If you don't act accordingly, that dream dissolves." - Chanel Miller, Know My Name
I find my stand standing at a diverging path: one offering failed potential, and the other - actionable success.
I fail to be present on a daily basis. Whether it's due to a lack of sleep or the fact that I'm back at home - I find myself hindering in progress. I set distinct goals for myself and tried to establish regimens that would prevent myself from regressing into my former unintelligible and unmotivated individual.
I want to say that it's a result of the fact that I'm not engaging in physical exercise... but I do think that it's moreso just the fact that I'm not reflecting consistently. I neglect - or rather - am unable to reflect on a consistent basis. And here we find ourselves, already, at the end of an unaccomplished month. I barely did anything thus far... and yet there's so much that keeps on piling on top of the plate of things I want to do.
Maybe it's the fact that I don't have my own room, or the fact that I despise learning. Maybe it's the fact that ... when I do have the time, instead of investing it towards any meaningful learning I end up flicking my fingers in a dreadful pattern to consume meaningless content. I hate the person that I have become. I feel severed within a fixed mindset and unable to truly grow as I intended to at the beginning of this year.
And here's the thing.. you can't be dumb and lazy. Well, things woulda been a helluva lot different if I was smart, or enjoyed practicing thinking. But I'm not. And that's the simple truth.
