Nov 7, 2015
i've had the second day from hell in a row and i am hiding in the restroom at work and i'm going through all of my precious url tags looking at every post lesley ever made about me and it's fucking depressing as hell
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i've had the second day from hell in a row and i am hiding in the restroom at work and i'm going through all of my precious url tags looking at every post lesley ever made about me and it's fucking depressing as hell
i just got a box in the mail from @fairietaleclara's mom. it's full of stuff of lesley's and stuff that she had bought or made for me that she never got the chance to send. god, i miss her so much.
i got a letter in the mail from fairietaleclara lesley's mom the same day her obituary was posted online lesley must be looking over me
the other day, when we were told that lesley was in the ICU, i sent her a message here on tumblr. and i started it with “i don’t know when you’ll see this”
and now she never will. it’s just sitting there. never to be read. and idk it makes me even sadder to know that she’ll never see my last message to her. no one will.
i just
i can’t do this
whenever someone i know dies, i go into a little shock. and i can't be around people. because, to me, the world has stopped and i can't understand how there are people who aren't miserable and grieving. i want to shake them and yell, "they're gone, they're dead, they're never coming back" and i have to remind myself that really, no one else cares. it's just me. gods, i already miss you so much, lesley. you were my first tumblr friend all those years ago. and there's nothing i can do.
fairietaleclara my beautiful friend. rest in peace. your hurts are all gone now.
Today the world lost one of the kindest, most lovely souls. My dear friend Lesley passed away today. I'm not sure how many of my followers on here were also friends with her, but she was known to everyone here as Fairietaleclara. You are so loved Les, and I will forever carry you in my heart.
strengthisbooty replied to your post: It’s kind of hard to write the results...
You can do it!! :D
fairietaleclara replied to your post: It’s kind of hard to write the results...
You can do it! Pretend you’re Cosima!
Ah thank you ladies! It’s coming along, just takes some oomf to get going on days like these :-)