I’m really careless with my food, as it is right now.
I’m getting back into fitness, but I definitely can’t out exercise a bad diet.
I feel that my health isn’t a priority for me right now, and that’s probably the root of why I’m lacking discipline in my food choices, portions, and caloric content. I just don’t care. Yet, at the same time, I don’t like that my loose clothes are now snug and some tight, I don’t like the soreness in my knees and back, and I don’t like the overall shape that I have right now. I definitely feel like I’m in a camp versus in a home. But, most of all, I don’t like how I don’t feel in control and like food isn’t important; I feel like I just want to be a garbage bin, lol.
So, shifting my priorities has to be important for me.
Speaking of health and all of that, I think that the anti-psychs may also be playing with my sense of appetite and that may also be contributing to my failing will-power; I’m also foggy with the anti-psychs and am not necessarily thinking many things through... I think I’ll bring it up with my doctor and ask if there are any other medications that we can try that won’t increase my appetite. I’d even prefer one that decreased my appetite, lol.
Overall, though, I’ve gotten my medications on time and I’m sleeping fairly decently and regularly. That’s an improvement. However, I did have a slight “episode” at school and, due to concerns of those around me and discussions of sending me to the psych ward, I dropped some of my classes. I’m upset, yet it’s probably the right choice... sigh.
