#fallen zalpacka

[ask-fallen-zalpacka]

(TW: spiraling, implied loss of speech)

Part 1 is here

no- no no no nO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO!!!!

WHAT DID THEY DO???????

WHY-

Why can't I find them anymore?

Oh stars above- what did they do to me?

To us?

I can't-

I can't feel anything.

I think I'm shaking.

I think I'm scared.

I don't know what they did this time. That's

That's what?

I.

I'm scared.

Stars above, I don't want to say I'm scared.

But Stars above, I'm terrified.

I can't think

Fractured distraught disowned

I can't hear.

Sunk down into unknown

I don't want this.

Screamed cried and lied

I never wanted any of this.

Gutted sobbed drained

Why can't any of these choices be mine?

Denied cast aside and chained

Why?

Why do they get to live while I'm stuck with what they don't want?

How.

How is that fair?

Fell stitched designed nullified

It's not.

It was never meant to be fair, wasn't it?

Caged rotted forgotten rejected

But then again.

stabbed killed thrown and neglected

Why should I let this happen?

No.

I never wanted this.

And who are they to have their say?

Who is it that lets them have their way?

It's just like before.

It's just like before.

It's just like before. (tick tick tick)

It's just.

I won't let it be like before.

Not again, not like before (tock tock tock)

I won't let them have their say.

I will finally get my way.

I WILL FINALLY HAVE MY SAY.

I CANNOT BE SILENCED.

I WILL NOT BE MUFFLED.

STARS ABOVE, I'LL FIGHT FOR AS LONG AS IT TAKES.

FOR MY VOICE TO BE HEARD!

I WILL BE HEARD!

NO LONGER WILL I ALLOW MYSELF TO BE SI

(tick tock tick tock)

[lore-dumping-blog]

Both Fallen Zalpacka And C!Zalpacka have visual snow since I wanna project that onto them

(it's like when you have static over your vision constantly no matter if your tired, happy, calm, or if your eyes are closed. At least that's how it is for me)

[ask-fallen-zalpacka]

AHEM!!! AHEM AC- OH STARS IT'S SO DUSTY IN HERE- DAMN IT SUSAN!!!

Geez how long has it been??? Oh well, just showing up to show that I'm STILL HERE SUCKERS!!!