How about: klaine + things you said when you thought i was asleep?
thank you so much for the request! both you and @bitbybitwrites sent me the same prompt so here it is for both of you <3
i went with something canon compliant and a bit angsty for this prompt. it discusses blaine’s thought regarding his relationship with kurt during the second half of season 5. i hope you like it !
Pairing: Kurt Hummel/Blaine Anderson
Rating: G
Word Count: 841
Prompt: 12 - things you said when you thought i was asleep
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fic can be read below the cut <3
Kurt got home late a lot these days.
He knew that Blaine had a hard time with it. He moved to New York largely to be closer to Kurt and now Kurt was too busy to really devote much time to him.
It wasn’t anybody’s fault. Kurt just had a heavy course load this semester, and paired with his Vogue internship and diner job, he hardly had a moment to himself, much less a moment to focus on Blaine. Many evenings were spent with Kurt coming home, deciding something simple for the two of them to eat, showering, and then passing out the moment his head hit the pillow.
Blaine tried to never complain about it, but Kurt could tell it bothered him.
Tonight was especially a let-down. Kurt came home from work and had discovered that their roommates would be out for the evening. Like, all their roommates. And normally, this was a fantastic thing seeing as they hardly found time to spend together with just the two of them. But just as luck would have it, Kurt was too exhausted to be able to take advantage of their personal time in any meaningful way.
“I’m sorry, Blaine, but I haven’t really had a moment to breathe in about twelve hours,” he explained apologetically, “I really just need some sleep.”
“Oh, yeah! Of course! I get it, yeah, get some rest, honey,” Blaine replied encouragingly, offering Kurt a chaste kiss of the cheek. He was trying to not let his disappointment show, and Kurt could appreciate that.
It wasn’t until that evening that Kurt really got to see the other end of Blaine’s thoughts.
He didn’t mean to listen in, not really. He really was prepared to pass out and be dead to the world until his alarm clock devastatingly went off the next morning.
But somewhere in between the haze between wakefulness and sleep, Blaine started to speak. Not to Kurt, or rather, not in a way that Kurt was ever supposed to hear it. He sat up in bed and sighed — Kurt felt the bed jostle even despite Blaine’s efforts to not disturb him.
“Sometimes I feel like you don’t really want me around,” Blaine muttered into the darkness, and yeah, Kurt was definitely not supposed to be hearing this. A warm hand ran through his hair gently, carding through in soft strokes. “Ever since I moved to New York, I dunno, I just feel like our relationship is… different somehow.”
Kurt should’ve done something. He should’ve alerted Blaine that he was awake, because these thoughts that Blaine was sharing were something personal and private.
Against his remarkably better judgment, Kurt didn’t move.
“I think a lot of it is probably my fault,” he confessed to who he believed to be no one. “I know you say that you forgive me, and I do believe you. But I feel like some part of you still holds it against me. Not that I blame you.” Kurt heard Blaine sniffle and wondered if he was crying. Then, the hand in his hair moved as Blaine grazed his thumb along Kurt’s cheek. It was a sweet, loving gesture, but it took a bit for Kurt to not react to it in a way that would reveal he was not actually asleep.
“I should probably tell you all these things when you’re actually awake, huh? I’m just scared, I guess. I don’t know if it’s obvious yet, but I’m not really that great at this whole relationship thing. I feel like when we first met, I always knew exactly what you needed. Now, I’m not so sure.” Blaine took a breath and finally pulled his hand away.
“I think… I think I just need you to need me,” Blaine eventually admitted, and even the way Blaine spoke felt weighted. “It’s selfish as hell, I know, but I liked feeling like you needed me. You were so scared and alone and needed someone to protect you and I loved being that person for you. But now you don’t, and… and I’m still trying to figure out how to be okay with that.”
Blaine’s voice broke and Kurt felt his chest constrict at the sound. “I love the man you are, but I can’t help but miss the boy you were. You’d probably be pissed if you heard me say that.” Blaine let out a soft laugh, but it was devoid of any real humor. “It’s so much easier to say these things when you’re asleep.”
After that, Blaine fell into silence. It felt like ages, but he eventually resettled into bed, pressing a kiss to Kurt’s temple before finally cuddling up next to him. Blaine was warm, but Kurt couldn’t help a chill that sat deep in his bones from everything he just heard — every word Blaine wanted to say to him but couldn’t find the strength to say it. With his arm wrapped protectively around Kurt’s waist, he murmured one final thing before drifting off to sleep.
About your ask from earlier: some unpopular opinions about the show in general? I love your mind!!!
hmm... i think my biggest one is that s4 is better than s3 and is a season i find myself rewatching frequently!! also, sinn + partie are both better noncanon finn and puck mlm ships than p/inn to me i just do not see p/inn as even remotely romantic. also kurts crush on finn, while weird looking back because of them later becoming stepbrothers, adds for a better klaine pay off and also is not as weird as it was made out to be, both by finn and some fans
List 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the askbox for the last 10 people who liked or reblogged something from you! Get to know your mutuals and followers! 🫶🏻
Oh dear I forgot about this thing 🥺
I actually answered someone for the same question and I guess I can link that. Or screw it,I can give you a new set
1. Genuine people to talk
2. Adopting gay characters and cherishing them
3. Long sleep
4. Able to.deal with my ADHD like symptoms
5. Obviously this fandom and sweet people like you.
Admittedly, I love Taylor with all my heart. Her music means the world to me and it can get me through all the hard times. I really am just a pop girly.
10. How tall are you?
I am only 5'5"...tall in my family but short every where else :(
36. Do you like your middle name?
I do, it's Lee. It's a family middle name, from my grandmother, mom, and now me. I wish to pass it on to my child someday.
40. What does your last text say?
To my brother: Hey, bud, sorry wrong timing again.
He keeps calling me at the worse times.
[also your icon is adorable. how'd you know kurt hummel is one of my other all time favourite characters]
@fallevs replied to your post “@evercaptor @thepondstogether @borg-collective...”:
If she was sick, it's for the best. Unfortunately, I understand the feeling very well... hugs 🫂
Yeah. That's what my dad thinks as well. After the initial shock and sadness, he felt relief. I haven't seen her in a long time because she was ill and she wasn't happy anymore. I did plan on seeing her, because I had a gift for her, so I am very sad I wasn't able to give it anymore, but I am also aware that I didn't put "enough" effort into seeing her because I was afraid of what I'd find. Everyone who went to see her told me that she was in so much pain, she barely registered anything else and it messed with her mind. It's an incredibly sad situation.
My dad gets why I am sad I wasn't able to give her my gift, but he's somewhat happy I only remember her the way she used to be.
But of course, that doesn't make it any less sad. As I also said when I called my parents: "She's not sad. She's not in pain. She can rest. We're the ones who get the sad part."
@fallevs replied to your post “Happy Sunday. It's cold again. Thank you...”:
I'm really so glad you liked it! It was my first time trying my hand at writing a poem, even though it is a style I love. The mean part inside me kept telling me you would hate it, but thankfully it was wrong. If a veteran of fandom says that, I have to believe it and keep writing! Thank you again from the bottom of my heart for the nice review! 🥰
It is really wack to see myself described as a "veteran of fandom" so I straight up thought you meant @quizasvivamos with that. But then I remembered Beth and I did discuss the fact that Tumblr reminded us that we've been following each other for 7 or 8 years or so. And then I amso remembered I have been on this site since 2011.
Wack.
You gotta keep writing! I am always so happy that there are still Klainer (12s) out here making Klaine fanwork and I am also very excited that new people keep joining, even though this show has been gone for 8 (!!!) years.
