#fandomtr*mpshate

[lollercakesff]

Writing Woes

So I've been working on my FandomTr*mpsHate FTH piece for 4 months now and it's splintered more than once. I don't remember the last time I struggled this hard with creating content I was passionate about and I think the reason why is what I'm writing about just makes me so incredibly angry that I'm not processing the anger, I'm just existing in it.

I've always used this auction to write stories with a social justice bent to them, particularly ones tied to the horror that has come out of this man's election. First it was The Conflict of Identity and the travel ban, then it was the tragedy of women's rights and how that can devolve into something like the MMIW inquiry in Found.

Now I'm torn between two warring ideas that make me so desolate, so rage-filled and sharp, that I'm struggling to research them and get the stories just right. I can't read anything more about the border crossings, the children in concentration camps, about the way Canadians are unable to help all the while our polls are saying that some Canadians are cooling their willingness to accept migrants at a time when migration is at a historically high number. I don't want to explore the abortion bans, where women are already being charged for being victims, where our bodies are not our own.

I hate that I have to choose between these topics, that I can't change things to make them better apart from what I'm already doing. I don't want to sit idly by anymore while people are suffering from hate.

I'm tired of this timeline. I'm tired of being exhausted by misery.

[lollercakesff]

As part of the @fandomtrumpshate auction, I wrote The Conflict of Identity and over the next few days it’ll be available on AO3 and FF.net

The amazing and wonderful human being, @sothereff, donated a generous amount to one of the recommended charities to have this story commissioned and it was an absolute joy to write for her. Many thanks to my incredible beta, @jennagill.

It should be noted that this story was heavily researched during the writing process. While some details may be a bit grey (I'm not an immigration expert, a Muslim, or an American for that matter), 95% of the story is based around real events that actually happened and blogs/first-person accounts of women's experiences in the States. I have done my absolute best to try to convey the possible experiences of the characters, but this is not to say it is perfect - please do let me know if something I've written is not okay and I will gladly address it as soon as I can. While it is fictitious, the story could be true.