[oc] what is michonne afraid of ? what does she love?
—what is michonne afraid of?
if asked she would think the appropriate answer should be death—she should fear it considering how interwoven it is into her existence. she should fear death seeing how it lingered around every aspect of her life but she had grown familiar with death. it’s lingering presence now the norm, it’s threats dull as it becomes an accepted fact. she holds it’s gaze when it stares her in the face knowing both knowing that their time to join will come soon enough. in the meantime they have learned to live with another, coexisting as they must. so instead of death she is afraid of life—the burden of living.
she fears that chaos is all that her life will be. she is afraid that despite her strong hands trying to hold things together, all that she has grown to cherish, to love, will be taken from her. she feels this most for rick, carl and judith if one were to be taken from her she is uncertain of how she would cope because she has finally found herself with something to lost—a family.
she is fears who was she was on the outside and knowing that being still lays trapped within her chest, poisoning her blood. she is keenly aware that the dirt and blood beneath her nails can never be scrubbed clean, that her very soul was worn and callous. she is afraid that darkness will pour out of her one day—breaking fear from its rib cage prison and will not be able to be caged again.
she loves her family—the group. she doesn’t communicate this explicitly, subconsciously afraid to communicate and make things too real but if looking at her actions it is obvious: she loves the group—community & what it represents.