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[faystrings]

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[faystrings]

There are times that, you have to stop caring, you have to turn off all emotions and feelings just to protect yourself from getting hurt.

[faystrings]

Waking up, eyes wide open..

it was like a dream. not those really cheery ones. its not perfect. so i guess, this must be reality.

September started kind of slow, since a couple of storms and bad weathered days opened it up. Heavy rains poured, flood levels were higher than usual, and classes were suspended. That’s how it all creeped in. The gloomy weather easily affected moods, but still, as real as the story goes, things were set to happen.

First up were Midterm exams. Or as students call them, hell week. Next were endless productions our college block needed to conceptualize and execute. A symposium held for our TV Production class, a Variety show upholding Original Pinoy Music pride.. numerous rehearsals for our dance number presentations.. Thesis chapters due, an Awards night for our Program Planning class, a music video for our Audio Visual Production class that got postponed due to countless reasons and again the terrible weather, a suspense-themed film that needs to be shot during the evenings.. (pause. breathe.)

a youth sunday spent at church where we practice songs for the whole service.. an internship i aimed to finish this month but couldn’t since i have about a hundred more hours to fill, events coverage for various school activities as part of the school paper and sideline photographer.. (hmm. what else?)

oh. still have family time even if my dad always complains about how i always stay out late and never bond with them. friend dramas, don’t even need to enumerate or take sides. and again, boy-friend issues. one day he’s all sweet and mushy, then the next day he’s like the rest and we ended up really screwed..

well, that’s that. i’ve complained a lot. i wasn’t giving my best. i had my bad days. its not all glitz and sparkles. i had a hard time dealing with things. it didn’t come wrinkle-free. i was pressured. felt down most of the time, and was about to fall of the edge.. but it was worth it. all of stress comes with lessons i’ve learned.

i’ve learned to stop over-analyzing things. well, real talk. i’ve learned to lessen or balance it. to accept things as they come and go. to stop pushing things i know i can’t change or is considered beyond my control..

"Wake me up, when September ends.."

everytime i hear that song from Greenday, i wonder what could be the story behind it. for me, another month comes to a close and so does the thread of things we have accomplished.

i woke up. i reflected on things and understood, with eyes wide open. i’ve made mistakes. i’ve learned. i’m not giving up. i’m just starting over :”)

[faystrings]

'Sabi nila everything has a story...

Bawat tao, bagay, o lugar ay may kanya-kanyang kwento'ng nakakaaliw.

This is "Shutter Life".'

  Finally, our travel documentary is done.

Shutter Life presents: Tagaytay Trip :)

[faystrings]

fear rejection. want affection. dream perfection ♥

[faystrings]

you are you, no one else will do. i am me, no one else can be.

--faystrings

[faystrings]

"So lately, I've been wonderin, Who will be there to take my place? When I'm gone, you'll need love, To light the shadows on your face.. If I could, then I would.. I'll go wherever you will go."

--Where ever you will go, The Calling.