#fcxdior

[fcxdara-blog]

Dear person I wish I weren't

dear person i wish i weren’t,

i have wanted to change myself to get rid of you, but it never really works out. some fraction of you always remains. no matter what i do, there’s always something that sticks. something that bothers me so badly that i almost cry.

i will always be stuck with this mutation.

i will always be nothing short of an animal.

please be easier to get rid of. 

—dara.

[fcxxdaehyun]

Dear person who made me cry

Dear person who made me cry, 

I would like to say that I hate you. For leaving me. For breaking down all my guards and then leaving me without any kind of protection. For promising me things that you couldn't - wouldn't - keep and allowing me to believe it. 

But truthfully, I can't. I don't know if it is because I am weak and far too forgiving for my own good but I would like to think that my tears were able to wash away a little bit of bitterness and I became a better person because of it. 

So in a sense, I should thank you. But I won't do that either.

Just know that you are the singular reason that I cried for days.

Daehyun

[fcxsanha]

ghost in a machine,

[/ there's a new kid at school today. commonly his attention towards newcomers had never been quite high (not even there, to be precise) but sanha has perhaps seen this young'in one too many times -- inadvertently anyway. in his customary act of simply roaming around the school corridors and grounds by himself, the tiny hamster-like kid's meandering behavior has caught him subtly by the ankle. they've walked past each other enough times  -- he lost count after the fifth, actually -- to give sanha a superficial idea of what the gloved boy was like; he's shy by all means, but it wasn't exactly a new-found trait for freshly enrolled kids was it? there's a bit of an avoidance in his gait and posture however, like he's afraid of people getting too close and touching him. and sanha wonders why, bothered by his own curiosity. they walk past each other again and sanha, slowly but surely comes to a stop. he glances back to see hesitance in his cautious walk and succumbs an upcoming smile, briefly pausing himself at the turn of his heel -- the abrupt need to back track temporarily kills his need to willingly seek him out. why is he so interested in this little critter anyway? ] oi -- [/ sanha calls out without thinking, picking up his pace to a light jog before cutting in front of him ] you lost, kid? [/ sanha has a feeling his touchy-feely nature isn't exactly appropriate in current circumstances, so he's buried his hands obediently in his pockets, simply staring down at the smaller male ]