#feeding intolerance

[serjicalsteel]

TRIGGER WARNING DISCUSSION OF MORTALITY WITH TERMINAL ILLNESS AND WEIGHT LOSS WITH MEDICAL NEGLECT UNDER THE CUT

I hate that im consistently losing weight still even while admitted to the point i don’t recognize myself beyond even just system facial dysmorphia, and my team doesn’t give two flying FyuCks bc due to my FPLD at a glance my face looks healthy.. “overweight” even because of my fat distribution..

but im not okay im not healthy and im not “overweight” even if I was it shouldn’t matter!? I lost 20lbs in 2 weeks.. now i’ve lost almost 5 more since being admitted. I’m so angry I can’t even speak. I’m losing myself to the system again. im so tired. i want to give up.

[jojosjourney]

I hate this! Within 30 minutes of starting my feeds stomach contents starts rising up my esophagus and I get nauseous. Oftentimes this spurs vomiting but days like today I can pause it in time to let the nausea go down. I just want to get nutrition in and feel okay afterwards.