#feeling abused

[lifewithbisexualintrovert]

How do you want me to react?

You abused my trust, so pulling away is only natural...

[bloody-contract-blog]

You little fucker

[fairysharkmother]

(Pt 1) Momma, I cant tell if my family is emotionally abusive or if I'm too sensitive. I have an older brother with prader willie syndrome and my mom loves him fiercely. He and I don't get along at all, and he has absolutely no respect for me

because he’s 9 years older than me. He gets to scream and make rude comments towards me but I never get to defend myself because my mom always takes his side. And I do mean always.

I cannot remember the last time my mother held me while I was hurting and my dad is the least affectionate person I know. He always calls me dumb and stupid. Its always in a joking tone, but it still hurts. Whenever I get emotional about things I start to cry and he calls me a wuss and a crybaby.

Today I was watching a movie and my brother wanted to watch a football game. Thinking that my movie would be finished by the time the game started, I agreed. I misjudged the timing and realized that my movie would go over about 20-30 minutes, I told my brother that I would tape the game for him and he went absolutely ballistic. I told my parents what was happening, hoping that for once they’d take my side but they took his and my mother told me that she was very upset with me so I kind of just snapped and let out how I felt about the family situation in general.

At one point, I expressed that I feel like she loves my brother more than she loves me. According to my dad, that hurt her feelings but she has made no attempt to talk to me about why I feel like this and my dad is just passing of the whole incident as me being on my period. I just… I feel like it’s abuse, but I keep hearing my dad and several other people telling me that I’m being too sensitive and over-emotional about this and idk I guess I just want someone to validate that what I’m feeling has valid reasoning behind it.

If what you’re feeling is stemming from a long-standing feeling of neglect, abuse and favouritism, then it’s not being “too sensitive”. While your brother has a condition that requires him to receive extra affection and attention, you DO also have feelings that require attending to — You didn’t agree to be part of your parents family; they agreed for you, and now they need to step up and care for both of you.As I say this, keep in close-mind that you’ll need to be flexible and make concessions for your brother; his disorder affects his cognitive ability, and you may have no idea what he deals with inside that he may not be able to express. 

As for your feeling berated, it’s a tough situation because although there are some indicators of verbal and emotional abuse in the names your dad calls you, you may have difficulty making a case for abuse with what you’ve described alone. Only you know the intensity of what you deal with, but it’s likely you’ll have to wait until you’re old enough to move to be free of your situation —also, unless you have a trustworthy relative to live with, the Foster system can potentially land you in a worse environment than you’re in currently, something you’ll need to weigh carefully before acting. 

Before anything else, make efforts to bend your parents ears to your grievances. You’ll need to wait until things cool down a bit, but then try approaching with a better-formed statement of disgruntlement. If you feel they can’t be reasoned with face-to-face, write a letter letting them know how you feel.

It’s tricky because you’ll need to bend somewhat for your brother, but you do also have to be firm in your Humanity as well; you have feelings and they are valid.

Hope this helps, dear! We’re rooting for you!

- Engineer Dave

[wrathofwaldo]

selfie cause I'm the loneliest boy in the world

[leaveitbleed]

I dont know what to say.

You're fucking me right off. You're not listening. You're dragging me down.

You are killing me and I don't even care.

[wahidstuff]

So I got my first ever ask on tumblr, and it turned out to be some kind of spam :(