Jun 1, 2025
it's really been bothering me that there is so much hardship in the world, and what I do in my free time is buy little treats, play video games, garden, swim, and make art.
it feels like I'm pacifying myself even though I know of what is going on around me. sometimes, it feels like I haven't earned it to have some leisure - like it sickens me to have fun & relaxation.
it's weird, I was feeling this same exact way during 2020.