#feigacore

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everybody else: royai bigbang things

me: what if royai 3some with my specialist little oc

full sketch below the cut 😖

roy: 👅

feiga: stupid fucking alchemist. when will be my turn with sobachka for 👅?? quit hogging >:(

riza: mrrpr rprmrmpp?? mroowww?? 🥺

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my sweet baby angel ❤️ i havent decided on a name for her or what her cutie mark would be (if anything—i really like the idea that since there has never been a single solitary moment of her life where she thought about what She wanted or Liked, shes never had a chance to figure out her special talent/true purpose in life) but thats okay because i just like looking at her, i think the colors i picked for her are super pretty

also bonus doodle under the cut hehehehehehe

riza being unsure whether or not bat ponies are like Vampires but offering her neck anyway, and feiga getting so flustered she has to Fly Away Right Now (bat ponies are Not vampiric and do Not need to drink blood to survive, but the idea of sucking on rizas neck is too much for feiga to handle)

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💋 and 🧣!

HOLDING UR HANDS AND PRESSING OUR FOREHEADS TOGETHER AND LEVITATING WHILE WE EMIT AN ETHEREAL GLOW!!!!! kim and i share custody of feiga and so much of what makes feiga feel like A Person in my head instead of a concept that gets abandoned (like most of my ocs, rip) comes from kim, ILU KIM U WERE IN THE DELIVERY ROOM WITH ME FOR 37 HOURS WHILE WE BIRTHED OUR SWEET PUPPY!!!! ❤️

💋 is ur oc a good kisser? have they kissed anyone before? do they even enjoy kissing? what was their first kiss like in comparison to their most recent? | LATE 20S VIRGIN!!!!!!!! has never had a Real Kiss. she never would have had time for relationships or fooling around, not as a teenager living in the tundra with Just her family around (and even if they still lived in a proper village/town, she was Much too repressed to first of all acknowledge her sexuality, let alone indulge in it), and not as a young adult in her training where that kind of fraternization was punished harshly. cold, dead-inside assassins dont kiss!!! she doesnt even realize she Has a sexuality until she has her run-in with riza, at which point she goes basically crazy with lust shes still Trying to repress now that she has Awakened to her raging lesbianism fjdsklfjsal. whenever she DOES have her first kiss, she is so scared and stiff. shes that meme thats like 'doesnt know how to kiss while the other person has their mouth open expecting tongue'. i think she probably prefers Other intimate activities over kissing anyway, if the kissing is foreplay then she has like No patience for it and would rather put her mouth to work. Elsewhere ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) once she gets over her repression and accepts her carnal need for muff

🧣what comforts ur oc? is it an item? an action? a person? whatever it is, how and why does it comfort them? | basically any action where she feels In Control. the most discomforted she gets is when she feels like things are slipping, like she is slipping, and losing a handle on herself or a situation. oh, she missed her mark (riza, and also to a lesser extent roy but this aint about him) for the first time like Ever and now the mark has clipped her shoulder with a lucky shot (also a first), and gotten away? she is now going to throw away all protocol And her contract to personally kidnap her mark and torture/kill her with her bare hands. that will make her not feel like everything is crashing down around her! it will surely not backfire and spin even more wildly Out of her control and put a target on Her back, forcing her to flee her homeland! oh, riza is going to beat her in a brawl and spare her life despite begging to be put out of her misery before she is captured/tortured/killed by her military for deserting/becoming useless to them, and now shes also feeling intense lust towards riza because shes beautiful and kind and feigas sexual awakening? time to help riza escape the country and never see her again because the only course of action here is to Get That Woman The Hell Away From Me Before I Explode. Badly.

eventually i think beth becomes a greater source of comfort for feiga and helps her cope with things when they fall out of her control, and just hearing beths words of encouragement and belief and faith in feiga, as well as her physical presence and affection, does a lot if she finds herself stressed over whatever. also BEACH TRIPS!!! feiga needs the ocean. she needs to sit in the sand and listen to the waves and ponder the deep dark. it will heal her.

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🍓 and 🥀 for the oc ask game ☺️💕

HI ANA THANK U!!!! i almost fell into the trap of doing work at my job that i am paid to do, boy am i glad to be thinking about my darling angel instead!! ❤️

🍓 does ur oc believe in anything? are they superstitious? religious? atheistic? has anything in their past made them this way? | HOOOOO BOY!! i was just starting to sketch this out in my mind yesterday with kim. so Currently feiga is something of an agnostic/athiest, she doesnt have Time to think about higher powers in a tangible "is there or isnt there" sense, but she grew up in an ultra-religious family, the kind that moved into the deepest part of the drachman tundra to escape modern society. the kind that, when a child falls ill or injured, they are praying for a cure instead of tending to the illness/injury, and if the child dies it was their gods will. this ended up leaving her the last surviving child in her family, she had a lot of siblings that ended up dying of illness or injury and neglect at their parents hands, so shes definitely Resentful of the idea of religion based on that. but ultimately, she herself in her adult life is not religious at all and actively forced herself to block out a lot of her upbringing

arguably though, she could probably be considered superstitious. she believes in luck as a concept, and that she has None and every good thing in her life had to be fought viciously for and earned, whereas other people, especially people shes decided have Not earned their right to live, survive due to being favored by luck, possibly in a bid to spite her specifically (in a way, that is the higher power she believes in and resents, rather than whatever literal interpretation of a higher power her parents believed in)

🥀 how does ur character deal with stressful situations? is their fear response fight, flight, freeze, or fawn? | FIGHT OMG shes going to thrash and kick and scream and spit and bite and claw her way through any and all hardship in her life, and if shes going to go down, its going to be swinging and drawing as much blood as she can. shes vindictive, shes vengeful, shes cruel, but most of all shes Hurt by her life circumstances and will lash out at any sign of difficulty or stress. she is a kicked dog, my poor puppy. the only exception would be while she is working as a political assassin, in which case if her contractors are angry with her, her training takes over and she will fawn to placate them. u dont argue with or fight cruel military generals, politicians, and warlords who Want an excuse to beat and degrade u! so while shes still Doing All Dat she will degrade herself in front of them, but them alone. she is a kicked dog, and theyre the ones doing the kicking, so she doesnt feel she has any power to fight them. any other situation shes going to fight fight fight biting barking ripping tearing bark bark bark bark bark

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would anyone be surprised at all to learn that in the fourish months ive been obsessed with feiga, the only Completed illustration ive done of her is. as a my little pony.

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🍒&❤️ for the ask game!

WEEHEE THANK U!!!

🍒 does ur character have a best friend? how long have they known each other? what do they like most about each other? how did they meet? | feiga doesnt know anybody FJKDLSJGKLSJF the nature of her job means that she cant or wont get close to Anyone. none of her contractors are especially kind or friendly to her, and maybe there were people she knew during her training that she Could have become friendly with, but there were too many things in the way (she was significantly younger than anyone around her during training because she was a prodigy, her elevated skills made anyone around her Resent her, the general vibe that 'making friends' was Not at all anything anyone expected, encouraged, or Wanted out of this training)

❤️ who is the most important person to ur character? to what lengths would they go to protect this person? | again, this is a weird one for feiga because theres not really an answer! she doesnt have ANYONE, let alone a most important person! one of the biggest things about her is just how Crushingly Lonely she is, she has Never had anyone in her corner, no allies, a rapidly dwindling list of family members she could Tolerate when she still had a family. she has always been alone, and until her run-in with riza she thought she would always BE alone, and that she preferred it that way. but then riza had to go and be so niceies to her and wake up a part of her heart she thought was carved out Years ago, and it hurts so bad because it reminds her of and makes her realize how much it has Always hurt so bad. in a sense, riza becomes the most important person in feigas life, enough to put herself at great risk helping riza escape drachma, because even though riza has completely Ruined Her Life and made her lose her Entire Sense Of Self, thats like. maybe not a bad thing?? feigas still figuring that out but it beats being tortured to death fjdlsfjkla. later when she meets beth and they start their relationship, beth becomes her most important person, and shes still afraid of death But Also still in heavy 'stress response: fight' mode, so shes willing to throw down and draw blood for her lady hehehe

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I wanna know more about Feiga if you wanna talk about her at all 🥺👉👈

OH MY GOD ALL I WANT TO DO IS TALK ABOUT FEIGA FJDSLKFJKSLA IM SORRY I DIDNT SEE THIS EARLIER!! is therrrrrre anything in particular ud like to know? if not, ill say that me and pepper have Possibly decided on a surname for her

feiga netopyr !! derived from an alternate name of the tsar tank (continuing the trend of naming military characters after war vehicles/machines, only this time with a distinct russian flavor hehe), and also i believe czech for bat !! which is why i tagged that pups post with the burrito wrapped bat pups as feigacore :> because shes one o those :>

and also here is a doodle of her i did on some work notes a while back fjdklsjfs

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OMG PHOENIX OC PHOENIX OC?!?! SIGN ME UP I want to learn everything omggg For now tho, for the ask mmm lets go with ❗️, 🚨 and 🧣 if its not too much!!

WEEEEEEEEE THANK U THANK U im really happy with the positive reception feigas been receiving, it makes me feel like im Not an insane selfish weirdo for wanting to talk about her and like im Allowed to share my thoughts in a public forum without being beaten to death FDJSKLGHLSKJFDS my brain is broken ❤️

❗️what was the scariest moment of ur characters life? does it still affect them? | HHHHHMMMMMMMMMMMMM well i look at her as having two distinct lives with distinct hardships: her childhood and her adulthood. so from her childhood, its definitely nebulous in my mind but its probably something to do with one of her siblings deaths, perhaps it was a very bad accident she was also involved in that she almost died from, but she happened to survive while her sibling didnt. probably a very violent, bloody accident with a lot of pain and suffering and being convinced that she will die without a miracle, only to be met with some cruel neutrality from her parents when that 'miracle' does occur and she survives/recovers. 'oh ur lucky to be alive, suppose it wasnt ur time', no celebration or care. probably put the fear of death in her that she ended up carrying with her into adulthood, one of the few things that Didnt get blocked out. as an adult, its probably her confrontation with riza and being told 'im not going to kill u' after shes been disarmed/beaten in the brawl because, if riza was refusing to kill her, it meant the drachman military would. i think i stole/modified the concept from the venture bros of an elite group of assassins/soldiers called 'the cleaners' whose responsibility it is to 'clean up' botch jobs, like feigas botch job trying to take out riza and roy, and they are much more cruel and sadistic than even feiga was to riza. she knows that if the cleaners get their hands on her, shes not just going to die, its going to be slow, painful, and miserable, and that fear of death, and of suffering, freezes her blood and makes her frantic and hysterical until rizas able to calm her down and agree to help her escape

🚨 whats ur characters relationship with the law? have they ever been arrested? what for? what are their opinions on law enforcement? | she lives outside of it and as an extension of it!! shes a political assassin, her vague 'assassin training' i keep alluding to is vague in my mind because i dont have it Fully fleshed out but to me its affiliated with the drachman military, perhaps a covert branch of some kind thats not officially sanctioned but the people in power dont care because its useful to have unsanctioned power. she has never been arrested in a typical sense, as a citizen who has broken a law, and as far as the upper brass is concerned, she either doesnt exist (to those not in the know about the situation) or, up until her defection, is a model soldier (unofficial, ofc, she has no real rank or place in the military but she is still one of Their dogs), an ideal enforcer of drachmas power. she initially has a lot of pride in her position as the best and most valuable, and is disdainful of any government/military besides her own, and doesnt view herself as the abused attack dog shes been beaten into. so much so that she derogatorily refers to roy and riza as filthy amestrian dogs, mutts, etc., simply for being soldiers, and also she hates them. seeing herself as the best, or being told shes the best, is a delusion/lie that she refuses to let go despite the Material Reality that there are assassins (the cleaners) who are Always going to be in a different league than her because she, unlike the cleaners, is still seen as capable of fucking up and becoming worthless. it isnt until her confrontation with riza and rizas influence telling her 'arent u mad at what theyve done to u?! they broke u until u were their best, and now theyre going to throw u away like ur nothing! the military is ur enemy! dont give them any more of urself, whether its ur body, ur pride, ur loyalty, or ur life! hit da bricks!!' that she decides YKNOW WHAT YEAH FUCK THIS and is able to finally redirect so much of her perceived hatred of riza more appropriately onto systems that lied to her and failed her and actively wanted to hurt her

BUT more broadly. jfdklsjfklsa. yeah shes never been a normal citizen so shes never had real experience with citizen-level crime or police

🧣 answered !