On nights that I feel low, I’ve developed the ability of reframing my mindset to think about all the possibilities that lie ahead for me. There’s so much this life has to offer, and the magic that exists in being human, lies in the very fact that we, ourselves, don’t even know what’s to come. This goes for the greatness we might possibly achieve and the tragedies we may possibly face as well. I choose to focus on the greatness I have coming my way, channeling positive energy, and believing that I’m good enough in this world to do something greater than good. I know I have a brilliant mind and a heart that could set the whole world on fire. Hushing my insecurities is me having to constantly remind myself that I’m not less of a person for not having a lover, or that I’m not less of a person for not being at the same point someone else is on their own journey. Comparison - the number one killer in happiness. It’s so easy and it’s so tempting, especially with today’s social media, to compare each and every detail of our lives to others. I’ve had two very good friends of mine claim their jealousy for my life of travel and having no ties, to anyone or anything...being able to live free, and not have to think about anyone but myself. I’ve shot back at them, the other side of the coin, claiming my jealousy of their consistency, their stable lives, their comfort, their homes, their forever lovers...how I would love to have someone to answer to and how I want to share my mind with someone special, together. It’s humbling to see we always wonder and yearn to have what’s on the other side of what we have not yet seen, or experienced. Now, I don’t, for a second, regret traveling, but I’d be lying if I told you it never gets lonely. I have my moments, of good times and bad, but more often than not, the bad times last only a second, because I can reframe my mind to live in the moment, and to be thankful for the path I’m on...the life I’m destined to lead. Where I’m at now, I’m learning all these things about myself. So many things that at times I can’t keep up. I know, because of that, my lack of a lover is fair, because I really want to have myself figured out before I expect a fair and healthy relationship with somebody else, who’s own feelings and thoughts come in to weigh on the new formed bond we’d share. And I know I’m going to be a hell of a lover, when that time comes. I’m going to be happy, and I’m going to be independent, but I’m always going to wake up choosing her, wherever and whoever she is, because that is what’s important. I don’t need someone to complete me, I just need someone who is going to do life with me...someone who I can depend on, someone I can learn from, someone who will respect me and my choices, someone who wants to always be on my team. And I know that time is coming. That dream of a lifelong partner, is real. Whether it happens soon, or years from now, I know I’ll never settle for anything less, and I’ll never fill my time with a distraction. My next relationship is going to be one that’s worth it...one that doesn’t end...one that lasts. I also am fortunate to know my mind will lead me down a very noble and rewarding career, not just in healthcare, but in bussiness. Money sure doesn’t buy happiness, but at the young age of 24, I’ve started researching ways to invest, small businesses that i could start, that could potentially be a money maker outside of my career right now. A wise man told me once, you’ve gotta have something outside of your job that makes you at least half of what you make in a career, and then your set. Since this conversation, and since researching, my interest is peaked in how to make money and how to capitalize by investing and taking risks. I am hopeful, there’s something out there for me that will make me MEAN something. Something I can build or create that will take off and be the most amazing thing ever. I see that as a vision for myself....I truly believe it can happen. I am so fortunate to where I’m at now, with the good job that I have, the opportunities I get to travel (for free, that people would kill for), and to have the mind that I have, one which has the ability to always see both sides to every situation. One that no longer lets myself dwell in sadness and despair - there’s so much more to life than bracing for impact, or impending doom, that may, or may not happen. I choose to shoot for the stars, but expect nothing in return. It’s up to me to jump and leap as far as I can, but it’s no one’s job to catch me or bring me there. I came into this world alone, and I go through this world alone, and I’m happy to love myself and surround myself with those who I know love me. What’s important is knowing who you are, keeping yourself in check, and always always being brutally honest with yourself. I am no where near perfect, and I never strive to be, because perfect means you’re done growing, and I always want to be a work in progress.