#fic.iaw

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pls fill me in on “alone but in another way” bc it feels like a threat thankuuuuuu

THREE OF YOU!! thank you @lattesqueeze @celineile @existentialcrisistime 😭

hey buddy wanna buy a wip

you found it! you found the outing au!!! so i realize that i've talked about this a fair amount already in a couple other asks but we'll summarize it super quick here!!

basically, pedro ends up in a relationship with a man that he keeps secret (for obvious reasons) and that this man (who we are calling ale) also wants to keep secret because his whole thing is being a hot bisexual personal trainer and people assuming that he's single is a huge part of his client draw. it starts out reasonably chill, ale is super charming and the fight a lot but in a fun sexy way and the sex is fucking fantastic and after a few months pedro moves out of murcia and up to barcelona into a little apartment so he can be closer to ale. things uhhh Intensify, shall we say. shit gets REALLY toxic (there's a lot of things that i will resist just dumping here), which eventually leads to ale breaking pedro's wrist (legitimately an accident but also not entirely an unwelcome one, from ale's side) and finally pedro has to tell someone (paul) because he's got a fucking broken wrist that he's insisting is from falling but like. you know. paul's his engineer he knows him too well. anyway pedro goes radio silent with ale for a full race weekend, and then he stays in a hotel in ???country??? wherever they are for that race/the next race and manages to text ale to be like yo i am not coming back i think. haha. hoohoo. and then a photo of ale and pedro kissing goodbye in ale's car is coincidentally leaked (who could have done this.) basically mid press conference and shit blows up So Fast, predictably

at this point the fic starts! it’s set loosely in like, an alternate version of the 2026 seaso? and is largely going to be from fermin’s pov (feelings realization bisexuality discovery etc etc) with interludes of tabloid articles/reddit & threads/etc but also is meant to include some other rider povs!! so far there is a loosely confirmed aleix, enea, and jorge chapter. lmao. i’d love to do a remy chapter as well for Reasons but i will have to like. listen to him talk for a while first. so yeah!! apart from this whole thing being an exercise in whumping the hell out of pedro (quite literally half of the now just-over-10k doc is pedro pov with the evil ex, which i can not imagine will ever be posted UNLESS.) i also thought it would be a super interesting character study of everyone else? like what is everyone’s reaction, do all the pilots band together to offer support, does jmart overcome his desire to say the f slur for his friend. all this. idk im have a lot of fun writing it and of course extra fun weaving all of the ouchie bits with b per usual !!!

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this is just the first scene lol

Fermín watches the video hours later, tucked into the couch of his motorhome. 

They’ve managed to suppress it, mostly; the Thursday press conference video is conspicuously missing from the MotoGP app, but they couldn’t stop anyone watching it live from screen capturing. It’s all over the internet now. All over Instagram and X, blowing up on the tabloids. 

It opens normally enough. Obviously. Bezzecchi is there, and Marc, and then Pedro with his arm in a sling. They ask Bezzecchi about the championship. They ask Marc about Alex. They ask Pedro how his arm is healing, and he tells them it’s fine, and he doesn’t speak much otherwise. He’s been more subdued all season. Fermín hadn’t been paying close enough attention to recognize it.

Marc is in the middle of talking about his hopes for the weekend when he stops abruptly, halfway through a sentence. He’s squinting at something, and the cameras cut to the wide shot again. Bezzecchi, to his left, is also squinting. Pedro, to his right, is so wide-eyed and tight-jawed it looks like skull is about to pop.

Someone’s voice comes over the microphone, partway through speaking. It’s difficult to hear even with the volume turned all the way up, but someone’s broken english gets the point of, is this you, kissing a man? across. 

Both Bezzecchi and Marc look at Pedro. Hard to see on Fermín’s phone screen but it’s varying shades of concern; Marc looks startled. Bezzecchi looks weirdly angry, and Bezzecchi is the one who stands up and starts waving his hands and saying, “We are here for racing,” over and over as the crowd of journalists all start talking over each other. 

The feed cuts pretty quickly after that. The camera jerks to the right. The last thing in the video before it goes to black is Pedro, pale, haunted. 

The video stops.

much later, after aleix kidnaps pedro and takes him to andorra

Pedro’s face twists. What he is now is honest. This version of him that is knelt in the sand, poised like a prey animal; that’s all honesty. 

“I’m not scared,” Pedro says. But his voice cracks it into pieces. 

Fermín lays his hand out between them. Offers it up like Pedro might take it, bend and sniff at him to see if he’s trustworthy, like a kicked dog or a feral cat.

“Can we go back inside?" Fermín asks, because he feels—obscurely miserable, now, prickly in the eyes. With a sudden surge of sympathy he wants to cry. He wants to help. He wants to give Pedro his hoodie so he’ll stop shaking. He wants to give Pedro his hand, to unbreak his heart. 

He wants his fucking friend back.

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I would love to hear something more about your sharks n roses outing fic? Is it a permin pic that gets leaked? Do you have some Aleix fairy godmother excerpts? Is it something you actively are writing or what excited you about this project?

oh man hello!!! i wasn't expecting people to be interested like this 🥹

it IS something i'm writing, though i'm doing it in a pretty roundabout way? like i feel weird about writing pedro/omc and posting it, not because there's anything wrong with that but i just personally feel self-conscious about it?? but there's just under 5k words in a doc right now and the majority of it is.... that part 😩 so we'll see how she goes!! it's a project that riles me up largely because i think pedro specifically is such an interesting guy to put through the secret relationship + outing debacle? the way he communicates and the way he would have to speak to the press (non-spanish press especially!!) could make things way more difficult for him, you know?? i think he'd be very blunt about it in the end but the reality of it is that he's like. extremely hurt by everything that goes down (and for good reason) (additionally i just love a little bit of whump okay it's FUN)

re: the actual pic SO that's a bit where the details are still being worked out a little bit BUT after the wrist-breaking incident the bf drives him to the airport and like very pointedly kisses him goodbye, which they don't do in public (neither of them have been interested at all in going public with any of this, pedro for obvious reasons, ale because he's a bit of a scummy dude and if people know he's in a relationship that removes a lot of his thirsty client-base (he's a personal trainer)) and someone gets a pic, like, not even really thinking anything of it initially apart from oh hey it's pedro acosta! and then they're like ....oh hey it's pedro acosta kissing a dude! literally the one time it happens they get caught, essentially. and then there's this week or two where pedro is at race tracks unable to race because of his wrist but he's bouncing between tracks and hotels because he doesn't want to go back and have to see ale? and in this span of time he does break up w ale (over text. natch) and also ale is sent this photo of them kissing by a local person who is wanting to use it as leverage. by then, ale is already pissed off w pedro for the attempted ghosting followed by the breakup, so he just leaks the photo himself! and makes himself available to say all manner of shitty things to the tabloids! he's a really cool person 🙂

as far as excerpts go i don't have much in the aleix department!! but i can tell you he's the one who like. gently bullies pedro into coming to andorra for a while because pedro after his wrist is healed is just like. he goes to a race. he goes home to stay with his parents. and it's not all that different to what he was doing before but it feels different to literally everyone? so yes, aleix drags pedro out to his house and there is a lot of drinking and POSSIBLY they do some substances and there's a little bit of healing beach time. because we all need some of that

the permin of course builds through this part!! like fermin after the outing is having all manner of weird thoughts, like. somewhat selfishly sitting there being like is THIS why we haven't talked in like ten years? did he have a CRUSH on me??? which is not exactly a kind or cool immediate assumption (but it is true). and then there's a larger part of him that is genuinely just... so worried, because pedro isn't acting like pedro on and off track, and it's entirely fair that he's not the same or well at all but fermin for the first time in a long time really wants to be there? the yearning, you know. a smaller but pointier bit of fermin's brain is also having a bit of a sexuality crisis now. like he waved away any potential bisexualism for a long time but now that he's actually being made to think about it. well

i have a lot of thoughts/feelings/notions about this whole dang au that grows Every single day (the most big ups to @celineile who might as well have written half of this thang!!!), like thinking about the socmed reaction and how much pedro would hate having insta comments that are like "welcome to the family pedro!!! 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈" lmao he'd rather just be called a slur i think. at least for a while. anyway there's a lot to be considered but this is once again getting long so i'll wrap it up there :')

thank you so much for asking!!!!

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Whump is the air that I breath and a broken wrist in the motorcycle sport? Hallelujah 🙏 I'm kissing your boots for a shred of a paragraph if you would share now or future days

three days late because i have been waffling about what is and isn't canon and also literally 80% of the doc is technically pre-fic. but here's a little bit post-outing, fermin pov, after fermin goes after pedro in his motorhome for an On Track situation and accidentally catches pedro having an actual panic attack

Someone from KTM—the same guy Fermín knocked into in his rush to get to the motorhomes—is muttering in an official’s ear. Fermín shifts on his stool. Pecco, next to him, doesn’t seem to notice. “Alright,” says the official, “It sounds like Pedro is ill, and he’ll—” “Oh yes,” Fermín blurts. Like an idiot. “Yes, I saw him. He is very sick. I saw.” Everyone looks at him like he’s a crazy person, which he kind of is. Why he has this compulsion to vouch for Pedro, to help him make his excuses, he has no idea.  The official blinks up at him, and then opens his mouth, and then very abruptly Pedro is sliding into the stool next to Fermín’s.  Fermín nearly falls out of his seat. It’s a complete 180 to the Pedro from, what, ten minutes ago? His face is still splotchy and pink, but he’s pulled a cap over the mess of his hair, and his eyes look a little swollen, but it’s easy to explain away. Allergies, the heat, whatever. The face that Pedro is presenting now, stony and flat and indifferent, gives nothing away at all.  “Erm—Pedro will be late,” the official finishes, lamely. “Welcome, Pedro. Before we start, we just want to emphasize that we will only be taking questions about racing, and the race, and…” Fermín stops listening. He leans a little closer to Pedro; thinks about reaching for him, tapping his arm or his knee, and then thinks better of it. His body is so rigid.  “Um. All good?” Fermín asks, quiet as he can get away with.  Pedro doesn’t even look at him. He doesn’t acknowledge Fermín at all. Either Paul told, or he’s put the pieces of Fermin’s idiot word vomit together himself. Either way, Fermín is in a shit spot.

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by chance is your poll from a couple days ago related to sharks n roses? if so... winning category with them would be so amazing n would love to hear your thoughts if possible :) thanks and have a nice day!

xoxo, moot who is too scared to come off anon

HELLO SECRET MOOT!!! yes you nailed it, those are all s&r concepts 🥹 the forced outing concept was literally the only thing i was talking about today in the dms so you've come at a fabulous time

loosely the concept is pedro has been in a secret relationship with a man for about a year, this is his first relationship with a guy (we have been calling him 'ale' as of today, he is ambiguously spanish or italian, it's a whole thing we'll iron that out later), and it turns out to be like DEEPLY toxic. like pedro goes into it with some Ideas about gayness and ale is this personal trainer/gym rat type, doesn't "act gay" (in pedro's eyes), so it's more palatable to pedro?? like neither of them are the ~effeminate one~ and they're both kind of assholes and they push each other around and argue a lot. at first i think ale is like very chill, very charming, he's probably like five or six years older and definitely more self-assured/experienced, and he knows how to hook someone and make it difficult for them to want to leave

sooo as the relationship goes on they're fighting more and more but it's turning way more one-sided? because ale makes a lot of "jokes" about pedro's job and how he's very much in the spotlight and man it would just be so easy to ruin his career?? pedro has so much to lose is the thing. like it would be so easy to out him, or if one of their fights got excessively physical he could be outed AND labeled an abuser etc etc, so pedro pulls back, but he also doesn't leave, half because he's like well this is just what a gay relationship must look like for me. and also it was his choice to keep it a secret in the first place so really he has no one but himself to blame (he says, in his brain)

so eventually things get so bad that pedro isn't himself anymore, he's jumpy and anxious in a way that is way more fear-based than anger-based? like paul goes to tell him something in the box and touches his shoulder and pedro flinches away, he's weird and stiff when he's on the podium (ale loves to be a massive cunt about anything that involves pedro getting a lot of attention. naturally) and he's distanced himself from his friends/coworkers/family (somewhere along the line he moved out of his parents' house and into an apartment in ale's city). and then there's an altercation that ends up with pedro's wrist being broken, which takes him out of racing for a couple of weeks? but he goes to the track anyway that first weekend with his broken wrist to watch and then, crucially, does NOT go back to his apartment and texts ale that he won't be coming back at all. which does not go over well because ale then feeds a bunch of info to the tabloids, first of all outing pedro, second of all making up a bunch of lies about how the broken wrist was something ale had to do in self-defense (pedro has been saying he just fell on it himself) etc etc etc

this is the point at which the actual fic would begin, i think 😩

i've been thinking of it as an outsider pov thing this whole time, likely just from fermin's pov? but maybe hopping around a bit, like a few scenes from paul's pov or some of the andorra gang but i'd also love to do it epistolary-ish style? so told in bits of outsider pov but also in tabloid articles / fake twt/reddit threads?? i think it would be an interesting thing to follow the speculation and also the potential waterfall effect of like. oh here's an out gay man in mgp now a bunch of other people in motorsport can come out!

it's a bit of an ambitious project but i've been doing some test writing for it and i'm VERY engaged at least conceptually!!! i've just realized i haven't actually talked about permin at ALL here but that's just because the permin comes through pretty deep into it?? like i think fermin probably has a vague bicurious streak that he is ambivalent about because it just hasn't really been relevant to his life since pedro fucked off out of it lmao . but the goal fic-wise would be for them to sort of reconnect and reconcile and maybe kiss about it a little!!!!! (possibly aleix espargaro is involved in this like some spanish fairy godmother. who can say)

this is largely unreadable and i am so sorry for it i have been sick for weeks and the cold meds do nothing but make me incoherent 😭 i would love to talk more about the permin of it all or just the whole au in general but for now i am going to go lay down and hack up a lung some more 😍 thank you SO much for asking!!!!